"Gee, I can't wait to screw up today!" --Dr. Burrs
Wow, its been a hell of a long time since I last wrote. Things have been going... both ways actually: good and bad. For the most part, though, things have been going well. I've been putting up with a lot of other people's shit for my own personal emotions and decided after this past weekend that I need to stop feeling so damn much, but all is finally well in my world.
The reason I had been so sad and depressed and whatever else has ended. I am still quite sad to see it all end, but I'm so happy we're still friends. And I don't mean just "Hey ... see ya around" friends... I mean real friends, the kind that stay up until 4 in the morning talking about anything and everything. The kind that can still tell each other anything despite the past we have together. I still kinda wish we were doing a little more than talking sometimes, but I've accepted my fate as the friend and its enough to make me smile.
Jesse emailed me about a week and a half ago and I procrastinated emailing him back. So he called me on Monday! Isn't that awesome? We talked for a total of 30 minutes the whole day (I had to call him back later). I'm not too sure what this is all about? I mean, I kinda figured it was a fun two week fling, but I never expected us to be calling each other long distance. I dunno? I've given up on getting my hopes up... it hurts too much in the end when you do that. Whatever happens, I'm sure it'll be great. He's such an amazing guy, he really knows how to make me laugh, and that the most important trait to have.
School is going relatively well. I've been talking to Khan a lot lately, he's such a cool kid... except when he tells me the guys I think are cute are gay, lol. SUCH A LET DOWN! lol I still love, love, LOVE philosophy... I unfortunetly get really tired around that time of day so I, without fail, start falling asleep, but its not the class, its me! I'm also taking a symphonic music class which I also absolutely adore. Its funny because after I graduated I swore I wouldn't ever play that dumb clarinet again because Fanelli made me hate it so much. And I have to remember to thank Cassie for encouraging it becuase it's such a great outlet. The professor (Dr. Burrs) is super funny and quite inspiring (hence my subject quote). Don't get me wrong, I have no intention of becoming a music major, but it makes me feel good while I'm there and I even enjoy practicing! haha (don't tell anyone I said that!)
I haven't done anything with the outdoors club (RUOC) this semester. I haven't done anything socially this semester except drink myself into oblivion a few times, lol. Alright, maybe not oblivion, but when I drink, I DRINK. I'm going to get back into the RU deaf awareness society (RUDAS) this semester... I kinda gave up last semester, lol. I'm really excited about that. Academically and socially (activity-wise) this is going to be a pretty kick ass semester... except for the fact that I have a midterm on my birthday, which for anyone wondering is only 12 days away! Flynn made me realize I've only made two new friends this semster, and I also realized I'm doing a terrible job of keeping up with the old ones that don't live in Helyar. I've got to fix that next week....
I'm going home this weekend to celebrate my birthday with my mom and grams.. I doubt my brother will come home. I think I'll study during the nationally recongnized day of greeting cards.... I mean Valentines Day. Well, I gotta go, time to do chores. I'll try to be more timely with the entries...