There are days where my heart feels like it's going to explode from my chest because it's too heavy and my chest can't contain it. It doesn't happen all that often, but when it does I go through an emotional roller coaster. To say that I hate crying would be an understatement. But sometimes that's the only way to make my heart feel smaller, to ( Read more... )

I think I'm going to be like Mary and start carrying Kleenex with me, especially when I go to Mass. I'm not one who cries often, but when I do cry it's normally when I'm trying to sleep, in my sleep, or at Mass. Don't ask why church makes me cry, but it does. I think it's because it's one of the few times in my life where I'm sitting and just ( Read more... )

It's pretty rare that I cry over boys and my lack of a love life. I was at Acme the other day and realized that Valentine's Day was around the corner. I've never really hated Valentine's Day before, but I'm not really liking it so much this year. I'm really tired of being single. I'm tired of wanting guys that I can't have, or wanting guys that ( Read more... )

I’m ridiculously emotional today ( Read more... )

I asked my dad if we could celebrate Christmas early this year. Chemo makes my mom tired and exhausted. The day is exhausting as it is; she doesn’t need more help with that. Normally I talk to my mom about family events. Who’s bringing what, what time events start, food and dessert and wine ideas. But I knew she’d say no right off the bat. I ( Read more... )

I saw Bella last night. It was...it was good. I didn't hate it, I didn't love it, but it made me think. There were shots in the movie that were so beautiful. Breathtakingly beautiful in fact. The lead actor was very good looking. His eyes were so intense, and I couldn't take my eyes off him. It's a good movie. I definitely recommend it. ( Read more... )

Do you remember this post? It talked about some random guy that Mary and I met that called and had us come out with him one night. Mary was going to the same place, so we ended up going and he didn't end up showing. I laid down the law in regards to the etiquette in standing me up. Please note, those rules apply if I don't know you. If I know ( Read more... )

Just when you think you're good, you're hit with another one. Evidently I'm engaged to the guy I like(d). His best friend from Chicago told a good friend of mine that we were engaged. Makes me wonder really.

I thought I was good, and instead I cried. What an awful day. First work, now this. I'm ready to be done with this shit. So ready.

Since I'm sure you were curious, I'm not going to be at my apartment for the next 2 weeks. I'm here tonight and tomorrow. Wednesday afternoon I'm driving to Cincinnati with my boss and we return Friday. Monday I leave for Springfield, Massachusetts. I fly home Friday and leave immediately for retreat which I won't be home from till Sunday ( Read more... )

I started crying in the middle of church yesterday. It was random and quite unplanned, not that I normally plan when I cry. I was supposed to be an Extraordinary Minister of the Eucharist, but I knew there was no way I could give out Precious Blood while crying. It'd be different I suppose. I had Jason go up for me. Once I received Communion I ( Read more... )