man I only post here it seems when things go wrong . . meh oh well lets me bitch and vent and worry

so I have a job with home depot and when I signed on, i was told I was part time temporary.

I really needed the job so . . I took it . .

but now . . they have me on 40 hour work weeks . . and im still "part time"
Im kinda confused, I guess I need to sit ( Read more... )

Things had settled down at his home, following the tension that led up to his Annexing of Austria. Though he would never admit to it he liked having the older man there, a living presence in his home that was usually silent. Roderich Edelstien . . . he often pondered to himself if he had known Roderich in another life, as he was familiar with some ( Read more... )

Yes . . Im depressed ( Read more... )

ugh . . .

I should be happy . . .

but im not . . .

Im sitting here smelling roses that my aunt got me for grad

and am literally depressed

My fathers sister probably thinks I'm stupid now . . . (traffic was heavy and yes aggressive driving was used because well when your trying to get to the mall on a Saturday night, its kinda hard)
My fathers sister ( Read more... )

So I wasnt taged but thought some of the questions:

***********FOODOLOGY***************

1. What is your salad dressing of choice?

Ranch is king of Salad Dressings

2. What is your favorite sit-down restaurant?

Hmmm . . . would have to say . . . Buck n Loons

3. What food could you eat every day for two weeks and not get sick of?

God I dont think ( Read more... )

so . . . its now a nightly ritual to cry . . .

I would feel bad calling people this late and cry on the phone . . . so here I sit on Livejoural . . always here . .

I've seriously looked at the Universitys counciling page . . I really dont find it helpful . . except for one line

"Grieving may progress over a period of two years or even longer, ( Read more... )

So yeah as if things really couldnt get worse
THEY DO

dad was in rehab recovering from his surgery on his broken hip.

I had gone over to Arei's to help her with the doflo coat . . . we had said we would do it in the morning since I was not feeling 100% and we were playing games.

Im laying there at 9am and I get woken up by my phone

I picked it up and ( Read more... )

Ok so for those who dont know lets start this story from the top,

My dad has been having hip problems for about a week . . and even started going to see a chiropractor. However Sunday my dad was in so much pain he could not walk under his own power and took my mother 1 hour to get him from the bathroom where he had been for 2 hours to bed only ( Read more... )

I hate this feeling . . .

I find friends . .  then . . . they slowly fade away . . like sand in an hour glass. Its not that I hate them or we aren't friends its that they become busy with other things . . and I seem to fall by the way side . . . their all moving faster then me and I cant keep up . . . .

I've been loosing so many lately, . . . they ( Read more... )

how did I become so attached . . .

for awhile I thought it was becoming a burden . . to talk with her so long but now . . when shes not here . .

I want to cry I cant sleep . . . I just want to hear her say good night to me, damn Im attached now.

I love her I cant denie it . . . I love her more then I think I ever did my ex's

She means a lot to me ( Read more... )