depressed
Yes . . Im depressed
I make stupid mistakes some times and some times they're small and dont harm anyone . .
but some times I loose friends over it . .
people tell me not to worry that I shouldn't be so down on myself but
when all I know is if I step one toe off line I get fried for it . .
Lost friends because they thought I was a creep
Lost friends because I got depressed around them
Lost friends because I said something that upset them
THe only friends I seem to keep are those who I dont see very often if at all . . . and maybe its better for me to be isolated that way
Its been like negative reinforcement you could say . . .
to me it always seems better to just step back and stay in the back, and the shadows and be slowly forgotten . .
I dont mind it, yes . . it does make me sad. But I understand that people move on and change.
I always feel unworthy of being peoples friend, so I walk on egg shells . . trying to not be a burden or offend or make any mistakes
when I do I feel roten about it . . . . and it makes me with draw . . to hide . .
I've decided to just stay home and not go to new years . . . . I dont fit in with those people . . I dont deserve to be their friend
I make stupid mistakes some times and some times they're small and dont harm anyone . .
but some times I loose friends over it . .
people tell me not to worry that I shouldn't be so down on myself but
when all I know is if I step one toe off line I get fried for it . .
Lost friends because they thought I was a creep
Lost friends because I got depressed around them
Lost friends because I said something that upset them
THe only friends I seem to keep are those who I dont see very often if at all . . . and maybe its better for me to be isolated that way
Its been like negative reinforcement you could say . . .
to me it always seems better to just step back and stay in the back, and the shadows and be slowly forgotten . .
I dont mind it, yes . . it does make me sad. But I understand that people move on and change.
I always feel unworthy of being peoples friend, so I walk on egg shells . . trying to not be a burden or offend or make any mistakes
when I do I feel roten about it . . . . and it makes me with draw . . to hide . .
I've decided to just stay home and not go to new years . . . . I dont fit in with those people . . I dont deserve to be their friend