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Do you have any idea what you have done to me over the past 3 days. I have been physically ill and have cried more in these 3 days than I have in years. You call me your best friend but are treating me like dirt. I have friends who claim to be less to me and would not have the audacity to even suggest the things that you've thrown at me. What is ( Read more... ) -
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It's been forever since I've written.. but i'm feeling it tonight and actually remembered the password.. lol ( Read more... ) -
BG, KY
WHAT IN THE WORLD????? Something just happened.. grr. Maybe I should go to the doctor ( Read more... ) -
orch dorch
So went to iwu's spring concert. it was belita's last one and she did a tchaickowsky piece.. (i knw i spelt that wrong). Really good. Jon went along. He had to be sooo BORED! now i'm sitting at my house expecting awkward convo with roommate.. but not yet. maybe i'll tell you about that later ( Read more... ) -
ups and downs
God is so amazingly good and faithful. It's just totally unbelievable and inexplicable. Seriously... i have asked so many times, "why" this or that. I've wondered why all these people have been put in my life, why i keep in touch with them, why they all seem to be so comfortable bearing their souls.. why i don't feel like i can reciprocate to any ( Read more... ) -
can't sleeeeeep
Still awake. Why you ask? I'm not sure. Ok. That was a lie. I can't sleep for a number of reasons. 1 inparticular. There are words that need to be said. Words that need to be heard. There are people who need to listen. People who need to talk. Feelings that need relieved. Stuff that has to be made free. Healing that needs to start. Blah. Words. All ( Read more... ) -
here i am
So many things have changed. Today I need to write. I need to spew some things.. know how i know? Here's how.. i've thrown up twice today and gotten a bloody nose for NO reason. This means, as usual, i'm internalizing like crazy. STTREEESSSSSSSS. Some things are great. Some things not so great, but i'm pretending to handle them. The said illnesses ( Read more... ) -
counting to 10
stressing some... on the inside at least. been sick to my stomach for about 3 days, but keeping it together pretty well on the outside. youknow. gramps is at colonial oaks not doin so good one day and then good the next. seriously thought he wouldn't live to the weekend earlier this week. also having other drama that i'm trying to lay down and not ( Read more... ) -
none whatsoever
No motivation. None whatsoever. It's true. In Leadership/Management we're making resumes, discussing jobs and all that jazz.. and me... i don't even want to turn in an application. what's wrong with me. its like i have the knowledge now to be a nurse, but haven't found an area that i like at all. what's that about? i've crossed everything except ER ( Read more... ) -
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so. i'm 22. a senior graduating in less than 3 months. moving in june. to CA hopefully in june for a visit. new job coming this summer. life's starting. i feel old. i feel like i'm supposed to be mature. seth's getting married.. which makes me feel EXTREMELY old. my friend little sethaford a married guy? weird. filing FAFSA again just in case i ( Read more... )