WHAT IN THE WORLD????? Something just happened.. grr. Maybe I should go to the doctor ( Read more... )

been a while since i got on here and complained. i think its high time. man do i have a headache tonight. not one of those migraines or throbbing deals.. just if i move or think to hard the aching starts. fun, i have a do-something headache. that should be the name of them. or the do-nothing... random ( Read more... )

arg. why does nothing have to happen and i'm all "who am i, what's going on, what will happen." am i that pathetic. why am i so un-grounded. it's ridiculous. i repeat-i can't wait to move out. cannot wait. sure, it won't solve things.. but i'll feel better. i will be my own person. ppl will be able to look at me and see someone responsible enough ( Read more... )

colts vs. jags game tonight. mom and al are in jacksonville w/ the fam at the game. i'm jealous. going to paul's soon to watch it myself. yea for monday night football ( Read more... )

the grass is always greener on the other side of the fence. it's true. i'm never content with where i am. today was not good. not mentally. or emotionally- though i played that off pretty well. i worked 6-230. i like the day shift schedule for weekends, but today it would have been better to be working. grams called yesterday freaking out about ( Read more... )

I am such a thankless, miserable, useless person. I am so wrapped up in what I call problems. I can't even see the light of day. I have a hard time being thankful for what I see around me every day. I am the most bitter and wretched person that ever poked their head out from behind a rock. i am so horrible. seriously. i have not talked to my sister ( Read more... )

i hate it when ppl write each other off. you know what i mean? they just stop talking to them and cut them out of their lives. there are ppl in my life that i've not liked or that have been extremely annoying but i don't write them off. i don't change the way i get along with them all of a sudden because something else comes along. i'm sitting here ( Read more... )

leave for germany tomorrow ( Read more... )

hung out with shane and katrina.
went to first friday (boring/gangsta-ridden)
went to walmart
went to paynes
took a walk with shane
should not be allowed to think
sickish
sick
ugh
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so something interesting happened last night. my arm kind of died. scared me to death. woke up in the middle of the night completely unable to move my right arm. nothing would move from the shoulder down. i tried to move my fingers and they wouldn't go. i picked up my arm (literally) and started rubbing it and trying to figure out how i was going ( Read more... )