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Sep 01, 2011 22:34

It's been forever since I've written.. but i'm feeling it tonight and actually remembered the password.. lol

SOOOOO sick these past couple weeks, and definitely again tonight. Nausea and all that goes along with that. Here's what the cause is... CHANGE. Yep, I now have 3 jobs: MGH, WCH, and IHC. I'm spread thin and just moved. I'm seeing lots of some and little of others. I'm getting ready for a "10" yr anniversary concert that is actually yr 11. I'm all outta sorts over several different things. Did i mention that i've moved too.. been here bout 2 wks. finally on my own completely. Handling that just fine except for how sick i am. crazzzzy!!! definitely suffering from commit issues, fear of getting hurt, weirdness about mom's upcoming marriage, drama from the grandmas, just stuff from all sides. i need.. peace that passes understanding~ one that will calm my stomach, nerves, fears... peace. In prayer for my good friend from a southern continent that is heavy on my heart so much of the time. I have control issues i think. i want to either b in control or not involved and it kills me when i get that helpless feeling. yesterday i got into this stupor that was just crazy. i was soooo negative and felt like a dark cloud was all over me. it was there this morning still and wants to jump on. now that i've called it out, by God's grace i'm staying out of it the best i can. still not helping the nausea and stuff. ate dinner and 1hr later thot.. UHOH. :( stuffs rough. nuff for now.

nausea, family, mom

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