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sometimes i think about deleting this journal and either not blogging anymore, or starting another blog. because i don't feel like the same person as who the majority of this blog reflects... which is because i really only blogged when i felt sad ( Read more... )

to be honest, i feel totally at a loss. i feel uncertain, tired. i feel like a toy that has been wound and wound and it has done all its whirring and rapid circular moving and now it has slowly come to a stand-still, hesitant in the silence. i'd like to feel at peace or something, but i still worry about all these left over unresolved issues, ( Read more... )

i'm afraid of this apathy that i have been feeling lately. i guess it's because everyone is leaving, i've written most of my exams, there's just one left, we are packing up and the year is pretty much boxed up and done. i just have to put it in storage.

i can feel it as a flattening and it bothers me.

gotta live through this too.......

i'm tired ( Read more... )

so, sometimes you feel like taking a step back ( Read more... )

i am exhausted but i refuse to be afraid of the coming weeks. i refuse to let setbacks bother me. i will be clear minded as i go to bed, prepare for tomorrow's fight.

i am no good; beat, i think you say ( Read more... )

I'm trying to do some gov reading but my mind is so scattered I am pausing. I'm feeling elated: I ran into one of my favourite past TFs and met with one of my favourite professors, who both offered me a lot of help and advice. Sometimes when I talk to people much older than me, who are doing their own research and work etc, I feel much more ( Read more... )