Lately I have been thinking about getting old, not because of a mid-life crisis or anything but because my 9 year old daughter told me she wanted to give me her money because I wasn't working and didn't have any. What a way to get figuratively bitch-slapped!! So now I am realizing that I don't have a retirement plan and that if I don't get it ( Read more... )

I think I can scratch the last paragraph of my previous post because I don't think I will be blessed with that chance afterall. Things were looking up and all of a sudden, I had to get angry and show my butt to him, making him feel less like a human being all because I don't know how to positively communicate how I feel when I am feeling low. I ( Read more... )

Ever have the realization that you are such a dumbass hit you? That just happened to me for the millionth time I can remember. So in a way, I guess you can say that it's nothing new. In this particular case, it took me some time to realize it but then I would find something else to occupy my mind and when all the lights were out and all the hustle ( Read more... )

I am watching my friend's son outside playing in the snow and I am getting really excited about my own son coming into this world. I was out helping Alexander roll this ginormous snow boulder and couldn't help but wonder how it will be playing with jr. when he is 8. Who is he going to look like, what is his personality going to be like? Is he ( Read more... )

So my promises of keeping a better journal have failed miserably but what can you do? And no, every sentence isn't going to end with that phrase, it was just fitting at the moment. I am once again expecting a baby, a boy this time and frankly, I am not sure how I feel about this. I wanted more children, it always seemed that I could never have ( Read more... )

Yeah so it has been a while. I have so much on my mind, so many thoughts that swim through my mind that it is hard to concentrate on getting me together. I want to go home. It is all I think about when my mind clears. I won't leave though, not unless I can take all of my children with me. I picture life on the land that my father left for me; ( Read more... )

So I am going to try to write a little more on here for practice for English 101 and all of the writing that I know I am going to have to do. Wow I register for classes in 2 days!! I am so nervous I can't breathe. All of this is so new to me but not. I have been a college student before and once in the classroom all of the things that I thought I ( Read more... )

This is pathetic. I need my glasses bad. I have my pc at 200% so I don't strain my eyes and make this headache worse. Ugh. So I am on the paleo diet and I am taking slimquick along with it. Is this bad? I haven't found an active community anywhere on this subject and it is getting a little disheartening. I have good ideas for recipes but ( Read more... )

Yesterday was day one of the Whole30 challenge and I failed on my first day. I did not give much thought or effort in the process of getting prepared, just jumped up and said "oh I can do that!" Today I am actually going to go to the store and do some planning for it since it is something I would really like to try. I had no sodas yesterday and ( Read more... )

so I found out today that a friend of mine may have cancer. Most of the people that are on my LJ fl are also on FB so this doesn't come as news. But unlike FB, I can actually elaborate a little bit on it. Cancer is a scary thing and I have had too many people I know be stricken with it. My friend Anne has/had breast cancer and then cancer ( Read more... )