I fucking hate people that get enjoyment out of making others miserable, but then try to act friendly to their face. Its fucking pathetic. Pisses me off, but I'm miserable at the same time. She knows exactly what to say to just ruin my good mood. To just make me double think every thought that I have ever had. I finally think that I know how I feel ( Read more... )

So this month has for the most part been great. An awesome girl to spend my days and even nights with, its amazing. I feel so deeply for her, and it scares me to think that I might even love her. Every time I think I'm in love, I get hurt, or they get hurt, and I just dont want that to happen. In this short time, we've had to deal with alot, and I' ( Read more... )

This is so aggrivating. To be told that someone's going to call you, and then they forget, or never do. For three days she's supposed to have called, but then I dont hear from her unless I call her. And I hate doing that. And then i dont know if shes not calling cuz shes sick of me already, or if she just gets preoccupied or forgets or what. Gah. ( Read more... )

OMG, so i've met the most amazing girl ever. I can't get her out of my head and I love it! Granted its causing my abilities to work to suffer a little bit, but oh well, I don't mind. Because guess what people, I'm finally happy with my life. Did you hear that? When was the last time I said something like that in my journal? Or ever? I don't ( Read more... )

GAH! guys are so fucking disgusting! Why is it that they automatically assume that a girl wants to fuck them if they agree to just hang out? Is that seriously all guys want from me? Sex? Cuz thats what its really starting to feel like. And then when they're bored with that, the seldom times that I even give it up anymore, I'm just tossed aside, ( Read more... )

They all go away. *poof* I wish they would stop it. Come back. I hate being alone, I hate it so much. I've been so blah lately. Why bother talking to people. Because once I get attached to them, *poof*. So if i dont talk to people or see them, I cant get hurt when they leave can I? But then I'm alone, I hate being alone.

Sometimes I ( Read more... )

Why is it when bad things happen in life, they all happen all at once. Its never spread out over a long period of time. For a while I thought my life was finally going in the right direction. Now I feel like I'm losing my mind. I dont know what to do about anything ( Read more... )

I hate the way u talk 2 me ( Read more... )

Why do I only update when I feel like I'm going crazy? And its all because of him! Stay out of my life, get out of my head! How do I erase an entire year from my memory so that I can finally be happy again? I'm scared that I'm never going to be happy again in a relationship again because of them. They've deteriorated all the self confidence I once ( Read more... )