Random bits to get a list of important things to think about right now;

confidence (how I talk, words I use)
+ confidence in the things I am doing in my life and their significance
+ not being afraid of being different

changes (leaving school, going on adventures)
+ emotional openness and connection (more of it <3 also deals w/ confidence ( Read more... )

Hooooooooeewwwowowowwwwww! Ohhhh life heee. It is still in transition for me, and to some degree I suppose it is always in transition. I'm such a fluid little creature. Wobblobblobbley honk honk <3. But I can feel some of the more shaky bumps evening themselves out ( Read more... )

Hiya Lovlies! <3 Fooofofofofofufufufuf ( Read more... )

Sometimes I wait until the cake is completely baked and finished to give it to you, but other times it's only the simple uncombined ingredients. In this case, this will just be the sugar and the flour and the random tidbits scattered about. Scrambley ( Read more... )

Someone just told me that they're having a baby. This has made me think; How do I feel about babies ( Read more... )

Wuuu school over <3. Huuuuuuuuoooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Big giant breaths and rolling around and stretching. Coming out of processing-serious-shit mode and into hay-i-like-you-crushie-on-everyone mode. Honkhonk. I have a week and a few days for many an open-ended plan + adventure. But really, I think I might actually spend a fair amount of ( Read more... )

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The past week or so for me has been figuring out some changes in myself after going through a lot of the processing around Orson(still in the vet, but progressively getting better) and death in general, and the impermanence of bodies. I've though a lot in the past about impermanence and how life is full of impermanence, and even experienced some ( Read more... )

2 days later Orson was found in the backyard in really bad shape, which turned out to be from a blockage in his bladder, preventing him from urinating. He got rushed to an animal hospital and put a catheter in him to drain his bladder, and has been there for a week. His bladder is doing fine, but now the muscles he uses to pee are needing to be ( Read more... )

There is this ball of anxiety and worries about Orson (my house cat) having disappeared for two days. I think I have a lot of issues around having pets sometimes. Having an animal in my life that is so dependent on me for their survival, for food and for shelter and otherwise. It's scary for me to have that kind of affect on an animal's life. I ( Read more... )