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Falling into Flames
What's wrong with me? Why do I always do this to myself? I can't seem to stay happy ever, it's like there is a magnet in me that triggers after so long of being happy, and this magnet pulls up all these bad feelings that I spend so much time and energy to fight off. And no one around me realizes the pain I endure, and no one understands me like ( Read more... ) -
Dead Inside
So, since I last posted I have had a horrendous time. After finding out I was pregnant on Saturday, I went to work Sunday, came home, took Michael to Walmart to get some food. When I got home I ended up with bad cramps and miscarried the baby... I was soo upset, I coultn stop crying. When Cody got home from his parents house I told him ( Read more... ) -
Positively A Miracle!
So, since I have posted a few things have happened, mostly in the last few days. First off I went to Winter Jam, def not a bible thumper, just went to see Skillet. Who by the way are amazing performers as they are musicians! But yesterday I took a test and I am PREGNANT! I am soo excited. I have not told Cody yet, I am going to try to keep my ( Read more... ) -
This year = Different
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Day off = Virtual Hell
Why is it that all week we look forward to our days off? Only to be smacked in the flipping face with reality of some kind of bullshit that seems to be going on in our lives, so that we end up spending what should be a wonderful day depressed and in bed sleeping or talking shit on FB! I am sick and tired of being the "strong one" so sick of it in ( Read more... ) -
Decisions Decisions
Well, today has been quite boring. I went to bed around 5:30 am so that I could get up for class around 12. But that did not happen. I deffinitely slept through my alarm, and stayed in bed untill almost 10 pm! So over 12 hours of sleep, which I am sure my stressed out body needed. Then Cody and I got up, took the movies and games we rented ( Read more... ) -
Lost and scared with nowhere to run...
Day two of not being in my house was quite rough, and fear it is only going to get worse. I stayed up all night so I wouldn't miss class this morning. I throughly enjoyed my classes, all up untill the last one. Then I spent most of it trying my best not to let my face hit the table. I didn't even know if I would make it back from school without ( Read more... ) -
A true friend can always put a smile on my face
Well, my day might have started off pretty fucking horrible with the disconnection of the electric, having to pack up n go to Cody'd familys house, then having to go to work. But a great friend whom recently reentered my life spent all night chatting with me online. Making me laugh, smile, and forget about all the drama and bullshit in my life ( Read more... ) -
And the descent into depression begins...
Okay, so I guess my rant on the fact that things seemed to be looking up for me jynxed the hell out of me ( Read more... ) -
A Paid Vacation... I think so!
So today hasn't been as bad as I thought it would be. I was kind of dreading this day since I had to do weekly counts instead of the smaller version with the daily counts. But even though my GM was gone for awhile due to his kid getting a cuncussion at Paoli Peaks today, he kindly returned to help me get the counts done much faster! I usually ( Read more... )