Day off = Virtual Hell

[lostnmaybe]

Why is it that all week we look forward to our days off?  Only to be smacked in the flipping face with reality of some kind of bullshit that seems to be going on in our lives, so that we end up spending what should be a wonderful day depressed and in bed sleeping or talking shit on FB!  I am sick and tired of being the "strong one" so sick of it in fact that this stong person is no longer strong at all.  My walls came crashing down when my life fell apart, and I am not even strong enough to rebuild them again.  I give up.  I'm done.  No more doing for others, no more caring about anyone or anything.  I don't even feel wanted anymore.  Used to that was at least fullfilled by work in the fact that everyone loved me, but I dont even feel the love there anymore.  I just want to run away, far far away.  I don't care what happens to me aymore.  I guess I never did really, I was always too worried about the people around me, well FUCK THEM!
I'm done.
Not trying again