Dead Inside
So, since I last posted I have had a horrendous time. After finding out I was pregnant on Saturday, I went to work Sunday, came home, took Michael to Walmart to get some food. When I got home I ended up with bad cramps and miscarried the baby... I was soo upset, I coultn stop crying. When Cody got home from his parents house I told him everything. Thankfully he was very supportive and dealt with me bawling my eyes out on him for hours even though he was sick as hell to his stomach. I did not go to work Monday due to the fact that I went to the hospital to get checked out. Fortunately the hospital helped me cover the bill since I do not have insurance at the moment, And luckily Cody went with me even though he absolutely hates hospitals and was feeling horrible. We were there for over 3 hours, and it was a horrid experience. I am currently in a lot of pain, and I am tired as hell. I really wish I didnt have to work tomorrow either, but definitely need the money, and something to keep my mind off of all of this. I am currently still in a state of shock, but if anything good came of this it would be the fact that I now know that it isnt impossible for me to have kids, just might be a high risk factor. But I am not feeling too great, so I am going to shut up and take a nap.