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2020
So, 2020 in a nutshell sucks, it's like something out of a space novel/ drama. 2020 has started with Covid, so first we all had to start wearing masks, and then we were qurantine, and then we were told to wear masks again, 6 ft distance, and our numbers keep climbing. I have never washed my hands so much, used so much hand sanitizer or worried ( Read more... ) -
My Sweet Kara
Its July 25, 2020 at 9:44 AM, and at 12:30 today we will say goodbye to our sweet Kara. We knew her even before she was born, her Mommy Velvet carried her in that sweet belly of hers with her other 9 babies..You came into our lives, and gave us so much joy, and smiles. Your quirkiness, and cute excitedeness, made everyone want to be around you ( Read more... ) -
feeling lost
So yea, 2 years since my dad Lloyd died, well he died in sept, so im a little late
ive been trying to reach out to my brother who has nothing to do with me or my mom since my dad died saying we are liars...
so now, im moving mom to independent living, reaching out to fam to see her, to help her befor ehse moves, and instead im told basically that ( Read more... ) -
too much too short
Kyle.. OMG u were in a car accidnet. and OM how they toldm ur mom, walked up to the door, . KYLE please know that ur loved, know that we are here for u i know u lost Christina, i feel like we focused so much on ourselves, ur mom, and maybe we jsut forgot.. KYLE never think ur not loved ur not forogtten....i think we all were so wrappped up , omg ( Read more... ) -
KYLE
OMG, you amost died..thank god you didnt.. but the injuries, broken ribs, borken collar abones, fractured this, fractured this, OMG the lsit is at my office, KYLE.. i cant watch somene elese kill themselves. i know u hurt, but you cant hurt us more i mean it.... YOU ARE LOVED MORE THAN YOU KNOW... we need you, i need you, my heart sunck... kyle i ( Read more... ) -
Today
So, Today, i live, I breathe, i smile, i laugh.... BUT
my life has not been so easy.... i have LOST so many in between
I have lost my Mom, Diane Arsenault......how i wish we had more time...
YEs im so blessed, for the time we had, BUT you know we needed more
i was ur baby, i needed more, i deserved more, but you were stolen from me,
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ME
So, i have never felt like i fit in, i made friends sure, but i always felt like i was hiding a part of me, whether it ws being adopted, or about my sad home life, either way, i hid so much.....i thought i was a good liar until it meant something.... my senor year i met my high school sweetie who is now my husband almost 30 yrs, AND oddly enough if ( Read more... ) -
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my life a year later
OMG - how is it a year later? i mean ... your presence is in my life, was long b4 that of course. but here we go...my life without you, is sad... i MISS you... funny cuz i know what the bible tells me, i know i will see you, but ....you kept me in check, you made me laugh, you made me cry , and i know you made me mad, but that ( Read more... ) -
a year later
How is it a year later? how am i supposed to be a grown up, and acknowledge a year later you left us... outside,im perfect, living day to day, inside, my heart hurts becuase you arent here...you know that your moomoo, my mom, didnt invison being gone, she thought with her sobriety she would live to see so much, and then she blinked, and well, ( Read more... ) -
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feelings
im feeling feelings i dont understand... and then i see.. hmm 2 days away from ur 1 yr anniv.. 1 yr reallYY? OMG how did u leave us a year ago? i feel like i heard u a year ago, like we were in vegas, so many memories, laughs, hugs, and now.....i need you, truly... what do i say, how do i act, how do i pretend... you and me i mean were ( Read more... )