Its been a while... Right now i just need to feel like i have something, somebody who cares what happens to me. I can't stop crying. I really want to cut again, just laying here listening to music all i can think of is "where could i hide it?" the music isn't helping any more. I'm scared of what will happen. I feel like no one wants me. No one ever ( Read more... )

A lot has been going on since my last post things have progressed but at the same time i feel like i'm stuck. Kevin has finally accepted the fact that i don't love him any more and that i will be seeing other people. He hasn't given up completely but is coming to terms with it.
Things with tony... I don't know what we are anymore we had this huge ( Read more... )

I can't get any of this off my mind. I wish i didn't feel this way about him and i wish that i could get over myself and him. I wish i didn't feel so inscure all the time either but i can't really help that either. I can't change who i am i can only wish i was prettier or skinnier or funnier or more loveable...
Something inside me just cuts every ( Read more... )

I haven't really posted lately, mostly because everyone seems to have disappeared and i'm just so disappointed with myself. I thought everything was ok and things were finally looking up... But now i'm not so sure.
I had a conversation with that guy, the guy that's always in these posts and he said "so i want to be with you do you want to be with me ( Read more... )

I knew the world wasn't going to end, but i feel like only the west coast heard about it... Odd.

I'm posting mostly because i feel happy, that everything for once feels right. Even though things aren't much different then yesterday, today feels so good.

I hate to seem repetitive but me and that guy i mention on here a lot are slowly progressing. I ( Read more... )

I have no idea what to do anymore with my life. I'm findin everything to be pointless, i'm just not as happy as i used to be. I expected so much more when i moved out of my moms but i really miss my dad. I was so close with him and now i feel so far away because she pushes me away from him.

I have no idea what i'm going to do after i graduate in ( Read more... )

I find myself just reverting back to my music, listening to the songs that fit so perfectly with my situation. If i could i would hybernate with these songs. Crawl in a hole and never come out. Even die listening to these moving songs. Even though i connect with a lot of my favorite songs i just feel... I donno detatched? Like i enjoy it but i want ( Read more... )

Sometimes i really just hate myself, everything about me. I feel so... I donno, gross i guess the word is, maybe just disgusted. My head has a way of making me hate myself more, just a voice that cuts me down within myself. And my heart... God my heart makes my head believe things can be, false hope, lies that i know are lies but end up believing ( Read more... )

I rrealise that a lot of you don't know who i am or anything about me other then the brief hints i leave in my posts. So i'm going to try to explain myself best i can.

My name is kelsey. I'm 18 and a senior in high school, waiting to get out of this craphold town in oregon. I got kicked out of my house in march because i got my lip pierced for my ( Read more... )

I'm so fed up with this. Who gives you the right to show your "love" for me over a stupid facebook post, to show the god damn world that you're such a good mom, when you can't even say you love me to my face?

Why do you resent me so much? I couldn't stop the child you love from being the way she is so why do you blame me for it? Is it because i was ( Read more... )