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Not strong enough
Has anyone heard that song by apocalypytica "not strong enough"? Well i swear they wrote that song about me. Every aspect of that song fits so perfectly in my horrible sittuation i call every day life. The only thing they forgot to mention is that in the end, i'm the one getting hurt.
"i'm not strong enough to stay away, can't run from you, i just ( Read more... ) -
:(
I feel so blahh. Alone. Heart broken. Scared.
I wish i could just say everything i feel. I wish i could be happy and move on.
"I finally made myself believe
That we will never be
So please dont make me think
That you still love me" -05-07-11
Its a lose lose situation. I distanced myself so i wouldn't go back to a place where i believe things might ( Read more... ) -
I just don't know
I need to stop myself before its too late, i need to gain back my self control. It happened again, a simple kiss, a light touch on the hand... God just make it all stop!
My head says "no get the hell out" but my heart says everything possibly opposite of what my head says.
I hate all of this, i need to distance myself from all of it and regain my ( Read more... ) -
A simple kiss
It amazes me how for an instant, the moment that our lips touch, i'm so alive. Everything around me stops in that moment, and i never want it to end. For once i feel like me again, for once i feel human and wanted. Yet after it's all over i feel so hallow. My mind races with thoughts.
"did he really want me?"
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Empty
I constantly find myself blocking out others. I create a wall so others can't reach me, i never let them in because in the past every single person i have ever trusted ended up leaving me behind and crushing me at one point or another. Everyone. So as a protection i hide behind my wall and barricade myself within fake smiles and silence when things ( Read more... )