Who gives you the right
I'm so fed up with this. Who gives you the right to show your "love" for me over a stupid facebook post, to show the god damn world that you're such a good mom, when you can't even say you love me to my face?
Why do you resent me so much? I couldn't stop the child you love from being the way she is so why do you blame me for it? Is it because i was an accident? Is it because i look so much like your golden child that turned out so wrong? Why can't you love me like you love the 4 other kids you have?
I feel so shallow right now and heartbroken. My own mother can only show her love towards me when there are wittnesses to prove she's such a good mom. Well good job mom gold god damn star for you. Best mom who neglets her child. One of your kids turn out a lesbian but you blame me for it and try to fix her. I get my lip pierced and you kick me out.
Why am i so effed up? Maybe its because my breathing problems and screwed up ancle which is perminatly brused with a bumb coming out of a place where it shouldn't be, is too expensive for a doctor to check out. But when my brother breaks a tv she goes out and buys them a flat screne tv to replace it. I'm always last to her. I even bust my ass doing everything for her, to make her proud of me, i actually was one of the only kids that went to her precious church but that wasn't even enough.
I plan to go to college, i want to major in forensic psycology, criminal profiling. Her reaction, i would be horrible at that job.
I gave up trying to please you, why don't you give up your charade too, we all know you never wanted me in the first place, it hurts more when you lie about it...
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