Not really sure why I'm writing on here, maybe it's because I don't really feel like writing in my real journal and need to get thoughts out or maybe because I can't sleep. I feel scared, lost, confused, and about a million other emotions all wrapped in one. I used to be so in control of things and now I feel like I have control of absolutely ( Read more... )

Wow...I knew it had been a long time since I wrote an entry, but I didn't know the last time I wrote was in April. I'm not sure anyone really reads this anyways...Not that that matters really. I just need to do a little venting I guess ( Read more... )

It's been a long time since I've been on here. Not a whole lot has happened or anything. I've just been busy, especially with school coming to an end and everything. I can't wait until summer! I'm so tired of class, teachers, homework, and just people here. That's mean of me to say, about the people and all, but I'm just ready to be home. ( Read more... )

So I sent my papers in to UConn last week. I'm excited about that. My dad is totally pissed about the whole thing, but he really has no reasons to be pissed. He says he doesn't understand why I won't just go to a school that is totally paid for over a school in which I'll have to take a loan out. He doesn't get it no matter what I say. He ( Read more... )

I don't know what the fuck I'm doing anymore. I'm confused as hell about everything in my life. I feel like it's fallen completely to pieces. I don't want to be in school. I have lost all motivation for any school work. I have aboslutely no motivation to go to any classes. Crazy how I used to like to learn and now I have to force myself to go ( Read more... )

Wow...I just love how one minute everything is going great, and the next everything goes to complete shit ( Read more... )

Christmas break was ummm well less than wonderful but I didn't expect anything spectacular. I worked...and worked....and worked some more. I didn't get anything too exciting for Christmas, just the normal stuff. Clothes, some jewelry, and some other small things... I didn't waste all of my break, I read 4 books during break. Well actually it ( Read more... )

Well I'm home now... All is going just like I thought it would, crappy. Friday, I only had to work an hour up at school and then I headed home. It pissed me off because I was supposed to work from 3-530, but I only worked from 3-4. The whole reason I stayed up at school was because I had to work. It wasn't worth it to stay at school alone for ( Read more... )

Well, it's finals week. I've got one down and two to go. Tomorrow is psych and accounting. Today was Spanish, it went well. I can't wait until my finals are over. I wish I was going home when I was done though. I'm going home Friday because I work the rest of the week. Oh well ( Read more... )

So that weekend of my birthday went worse than the last. Yeah I didn't think that was possible...but obviously not. I'm tired of fighting with my parents about this crap. Why can't they just let me do what I think is best for me. I'm going to have to start making my own decisions sometime soon. They need to let go...They both have mentioned ( Read more... )