It's been a while...a long while...
Christmas break was ummm well less than wonderful but I didn't expect anything spectacular. I worked...and worked....and worked some more. I didn't get anything too exciting for Christmas, just the normal stuff. Clothes, some jewelry, and some other small things... I didn't waste all of my break, I read 4 books during break. Well actually it was at the end of break, not throughout the whole break. But I still read them, and they were very good. The highlight of my break was that I went to Connecticut to see my one true love. I had a really good time and can't wait to go back to see him. I was really suprised that I went actually. I mean I wanted to go badly, but I was kind of worried that my parents wouldn't let me. Obviously they let me. I paid for the ticket, but I was fine with that. It was well worth it. I'm so in love with him.
I'm back at school now. Classes suck, and I feel like I'm going to be really busy with them this semester with work and class. I don't know about the teachers... I'm kind of excited for some weird reason about my Philosophy class. At first I wasn't, because the teacher was umm less than interesting, but then I read the first chapter, and well...it kept my interest easily.
I have made some new friends this semester which is good, and have strengthened some of my relationships with friends that I already had which is also good. I can't go getting too attached though as I am definately not coming back next year. I put in my application to UConn. Now I just need to apply to maybe 2 more schools...I have to find 2 more places that I want to go to though.
As for my wonderful love life...well right now it's not going in the direction I want it to. I always seem to do something wrong. I swear I suck at life. Or maybe my problem is that I just don't think. I think it's a mixture of both. Just when I think everything is going good, BAM! something comes up. I hve been trying really hard to keep the relationship going and making it last. As hard as I try though, I always end up doing something wrong. It just sucks when you have the strongest feelings in the world for someone and can't imagine your future without them in it, and things between the two of you aren't going well. I fucking hate it. I know it's my fault too, which makes it worse. It just really sucks...not being able to be with someone you love... I don't think anyone should have to go through that. Love is too precious.
Ok enough of that...I'm just making myself sadder. I'm going to get going as I have an 8 tomorrow. Maybe I'll find time to write again.
I'm back at school now. Classes suck, and I feel like I'm going to be really busy with them this semester with work and class. I don't know about the teachers... I'm kind of excited for some weird reason about my Philosophy class. At first I wasn't, because the teacher was umm less than interesting, but then I read the first chapter, and well...it kept my interest easily.
I have made some new friends this semester which is good, and have strengthened some of my relationships with friends that I already had which is also good. I can't go getting too attached though as I am definately not coming back next year. I put in my application to UConn. Now I just need to apply to maybe 2 more schools...I have to find 2 more places that I want to go to though.
As for my wonderful love life...well right now it's not going in the direction I want it to. I always seem to do something wrong. I swear I suck at life. Or maybe my problem is that I just don't think. I think it's a mixture of both. Just when I think everything is going good, BAM! something comes up. I hve been trying really hard to keep the relationship going and making it last. As hard as I try though, I always end up doing something wrong. It just sucks when you have the strongest feelings in the world for someone and can't imagine your future without them in it, and things between the two of you aren't going well. I fucking hate it. I know it's my fault too, which makes it worse. It just really sucks...not being able to be with someone you love... I don't think anyone should have to go through that. Love is too precious.
Ok enough of that...I'm just making myself sadder. I'm going to get going as I have an 8 tomorrow. Maybe I'll find time to write again.