is back in the pit of my stomach. i have no reason to feel this way. other than someone very close to me telling me that he and i are no good for each other, that all we do is tear each other apart. i tell myself that she doesn't know. that she can't see how we are when we're together ( Read more... )

just when i think i've got it all figured out, something changes. i saw him today. it was both akward and comfortable to me. and we cried. but we also laughed. he kissed me and held me and said "i love you" to me for the first time in weeks. but he also told me that he slept with someone else last night. i'm still feeling kind of numb. it hasn't ( Read more... )

Current mood: ecstatic ( Read more... )

today. was long. was a disappointment. is almost over ( Read more... )

8/25 ( Read more... )

I don't know where to begin. I moved out of my apartment and back home with my mom lastnight. Rin moved in in my place. I'll miss living on my own- it totally sucks to be back home, and I want to be out of here ASAP. I've been applying everywhere but no luck so far ( Read more... )

so i got fired from my job. and it's a bitch to find one that pays as well. i've got an interview at 9 at a daycare center tomorrow. i haven't been employed for almost 3 weeks now, and i can't pay rent. so i'm gonna move back home at the end of august to get back on my feet and save some money. then ford and i are planning on renting to own a home ( Read more... )

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