summer days
so i got fired from my job. and it's a bitch to find one that pays as well. i've got an interview at 9 at a daycare center tomorrow. i haven't been employed for almost 3 weeks now, and i can't pay rent. so i'm gonna move back home at the end of august to get back on my feet and save some money. then ford and i are planning on renting to own a home. maybe in november. i'm not sure yet. there's been some tough shit going on lately, but i feel ready to handle it. i've got my life where i want it now, and i'm in control of my decisions. it's sometimes hard to be commited to him. and i did cheat on him a few weeks ago. i told him though, and instantly regretted what i'd done. the good thing though, is that it convinced me more than ever that i only want to be with him. it was with the lead singer of Shattermask when they were staying with me and Kali on tour. i had an awesome time with them but it made me realize i don't want to be crazy anymore. i want to settle down with something solid and concrete, and that's him. i can depend on him. we're a good team and i am so comfortable with him. he's the best friend i've ever had, and our realationship has come so far from the days when i just wanted to hook up with him for his hottness. we tripped shrooms a few days ago and decided to be hippies and live out in the forest in his van. i think it'd be good for me. i mellow out more every day. hopefully i'll be able to take classes next semester. oh and kali's calling i gotta take her to work. so later.