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Entry 32 - Realisation, rationalisation, reflection
So originally when I set up my LJ page I intended it be like a diary of my life, the good, the bad and the ugly. Over several iterations I've come to realise I don't really blog when I'm happy or when I'm ambivalent. It's only when I'm feeling lost or low or downright miserable that I come here. Maybe that's a sad state of affairs, maybe I'm fine ( Read more... ) -
Entry 31 - I get by with(out) a little help from my friends
My so called friends Tim and Amy have been rubbish the last 2 months. Last leaving me with the advice to enjoy living on my own for a while and enjoy time with friends without a partner always being there, they have decided to spend the last 10 weeks or so incommunicado. I text, they never reply, or ring and they don't pick up. Occasionally I see ( Read more... ) -
Entry 30 - Hitting the reset button
A lot has happened since my breakdown. I'm not going to cover it all right now, if at all, some things were hard enough coming to terms with once, and I have no need to relive them.
I realised when I was thinking of this sporadic journal again that I had never been truly honest with the things I wrote. Sometimes it was because I was afraid Claire ( Read more... ) -
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Entry 28 - Absenteeism continues
I still haven't been journalling much recently. This past year has been the most well documented in all my life, a (vaugely) consistent journal of my thoughts, a poetry book which is well under way, a one picture a day diary (essentially) and my travel journal combined mean this year has been pretty thorough ( Read more... ) -
Entry 27 - Self improvement is not masturbation
I stand (technically I'm sitting) at a realisation. For the last 6 months or so, I've been trying to improve myself. I've been trying to write more to improve my skills there, practicing photography more and more to become better at it, and singing a lot more in preperation for the audition (which I passed, and got the part, thank you very much!) ( Read more... ) -
Entry 26 - Juvenile Delinquency
GAH!! Most of the time, having an immature mind is a blessing. I find more things funny than almost anyone I know, and usually I end up having more fun in a boring situation because of it. But sometimes, it can be a bitch to deal with. Like now, obviously ( Read more... ) -
Entry 25: Is it really paranoia if everyone is actually out to get you?
So, I'm not sure if I'm ill. See, since the surgery, pretty much every ache and pain I've had has felt serious, even though they haven't been. I went for a colonoscopy the other day (fun fun fun!!) and I was worried about a swelling of my upper stomach I've had for about a week. Doc says offhandedly, it's a stomach hernia, nothing to worry about.
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Entry 24: Writ(ing) wing
So the writing is going well. I'm onto 30 pages and I've written poems about something from almost all ends of the proverbial spectrum, from Doodlejump addiction, Zombies, how amazing Sunday roast dinners are, going mountain biking, to how bruised I feel the day after karate.
I'm still very much working my way through my own ideas, but for a bit of ( Read more... ) -
Entry 23: Inspiration point
The writing is really motoring along at the moment, I'm really proud and happy about it. Most of it isn't good, and isn't the kind of stuff that I'd want to share with others, but that's not the point of this excercise, it's mostly just to keep me writing as much as possible. I think it really helps that the thoughts that I'm using are massively ( Read more... )