Entry 26 - Juvenile Delinquency
GAH!! Most of the time, having an immature mind is a blessing. I find more things funny than almost anyone I know, and usually I end up having more fun in a boring situation because of it. But sometimes, it can be a bitch to deal with. Like now, obviously.
Is the idea of having a "best friend" childish? I'm not sure, but I sure as hell deal with friendship in a childish way from time to time, and I have a real tough time dealing with it when someone means more to me than I do to them. I'm okay with not being everyone's best friend, really, I am. There are plenty of people I'm okay with them hating me. But the people I like, well, I want them to like me just as much back, and hell knows I act like a whiny little kid when I don't think it's true. I wish I could control it, I really do.
As lame as it sounds, I've always felt like I'm Chandler without my Joey, JD without my Turk, or Shawn without my Gus. Once, I had a male best friend that lived up to the hype for a while, then he turned his back on me, and why does that seem to have to be mutually exclusive with being married?
Like I said, childish. Maybe, one day, I'll grow out of this part of it, but keep the fun side of it. I truly hope so.
Is the idea of having a "best friend" childish? I'm not sure, but I sure as hell deal with friendship in a childish way from time to time, and I have a real tough time dealing with it when someone means more to me than I do to them. I'm okay with not being everyone's best friend, really, I am. There are plenty of people I'm okay with them hating me. But the people I like, well, I want them to like me just as much back, and hell knows I act like a whiny little kid when I don't think it's true. I wish I could control it, I really do.
As lame as it sounds, I've always felt like I'm Chandler without my Joey, JD without my Turk, or Shawn without my Gus. Once, I had a male best friend that lived up to the hype for a while, then he turned his back on me, and why does that seem to have to be mutually exclusive with being married?
Like I said, childish. Maybe, one day, I'll grow out of this part of it, but keep the fun side of it. I truly hope so.