yesterday i attended a funeral of my great-grandmother. i didn't know her or, more likely, i don't remember her. she's always been living far away even from my birth-city, zamość, then at my uncle's place then at a special hospital for older people. when i was small i did go to her home in the country, fed chickens, cows and dig up potatoes. but it ( Read more... )

WRITTEN YESTERDAY:
living with someone takes away your personal freedom. cuz even if you're a very outgoing person who loves to have fun/spend time with people, you still can be a loner. i'm a loner at home. at home i want to be left alone and not bothered. so yeah, i'll keep on complaining about that a lot. A LOT.

code geass r2 episode 5... kills ( Read more... )

gosh, my life is undergoing some major changes. i'm not sure whether i like it or not ( Read more... )

gosia's sleeping over and taking my computer for her own use. well, i don't mind. somehow i'm so busy these days i turn compy on and still do nothing. it's uni --> hospital --> outing --> sleep. i'm almost a guest at my own home.

but i'll try to find some time tomorrow. gotta catch up on code geass~! in next episode suzaku comes back <3<3 ( Read more... )

so many, many things happened. my dad's stable but not better. they can't calm his blood pressure as he doesn't react to any medicine. both me and my aunt are getting kind of sceptical but we're not doctors - we can't really know. i guess it's only natural for us to want everything faster. i'm visiting him daily, i already know the son and husband ( Read more... )

i found a random note on one of my endless papers: ryuusei - uke, kami - moriya - seme. oh god, there were times when i couldn't remember it XD ( Read more... )

there's new ZE. even though it's without moriya and ryuusei, it still made me SO HAPPY ;__;what about life? nothing much. i'm stressed about my girls and their didactics retake. if they fail and are forced to drop out, i'll be ALONE. well, not alone, but no close bound like with them, my group is made pretty much of shit. oh god, they really try ( Read more... )

because yeah, like fuck. if i HAVE TO stay at home today to prepare for tomorrow's lessons and all, since i haven't done a thing during winter break, they get moody, persistent and annoying. and omg, WHY I CAN'T? i ALWAYS CAN. no, not always. and even though my ass is itching to go, have fun with them (cuz all in all i love them), i don't have time ( Read more... )

i'm a blessed child, honestly. the amount of luck i use for school is enormous, i swear.
( k, i cut it because it looks long. my blah about today )

lately i've been opening notepad and writing down some notes that go through my head and post them. maybe it'll turn into some kind of ritual and daily activity, lol ( Read more... )