VISITING FAMILY IN ZAMOSC = NOT HAVING ANYTHING TO DO = ONE EVENING/TWO DAYS OF BOREDOOM. I'M NOT A FAMILY PERSON, I DON'T LONG TO MEET THEM. NOTHING ( Read more... )

maybe i’m really unfeeling and heartless but i really have no feelings other than annoyance when it comes to my grandma being sick with alzheimer and me having to look after her ( Read more... )

i wonder what my old and lost fandom friends are doing. it's been years. ecla, mommy, luxie, loki, kaini, eri. i wonder how their lives went, if they're accomplished. i hope they're happy. i hate internet friendships. when you lose them it hurts more than losing rl ones, for some reasons. maybe because there's basically no way for me to find out ( Read more... )

days until GLEE is back from summer's hiatus: 22

i just gave my dad THE TALK. i'm sorry, i'm sorry, i could sense your discomfort. but we're both adults, i don't mind talking about sex with you.

days left until kurt is back at mckinley and he sings "born this way": 3
until glee's prom and kurt in kilt: 17i don't give a damn about easter. i have close to no family feelings. yes, i love them and i don't wish anything bad on them ever but aside from that? i don't care if we meet or not. just because we're family doesn't have to mean we ( Read more... )

days left until next glee: 12

i came out to my dad.

it was so fucking hard. jesus. i still think coming out isn't needed but i wanted to be in clear in case i bring home a girl. but the moment i wanted to say it i felt so nervous, anxious, terrified. i didn't know how to start, how to breach the subject. i couldn't just say it like "oh, dad, you ( Read more... )

while talking about stuff and when the topic of homo-, bi-, trans-, metrosexuals came up my brother (cousin in english, i think. son of my mom's sister), answering to smth i wrote, typed:

"is it because of your bisexuality?"my heart stopped for a second and then started to beat like crazy. did i tell him? when? how? did he figure it out from my gg ( Read more... )

i hate being told what to do and when. when he does that i want to do exact opposite - and i usually do. i have my own pace, with worse or better outcome but i won't b steered. sorry but no. i didn't go today for injections? happens. i'm lazy? happens. i hate going out for things i see no pleasure in? happens. so let me do it my own way and fuck ( Read more... )

i'm really not a family person but all in all, my visit wasn't half as bad as i thought it'd be. i had some massive mood swings but when my bro came i had something to do and it was fine. speaking about mood swings, it's becoming STRANGE. i mean, i'm not teenager gout through their rebellious age yet my mood changes like english weather. i think i ( Read more... )

so, tomorrow i have to post pictures from the lake, remember, YOU ( Read more... )