Instead, he'd kept busy: taking care of his dad, keeping the house running smoothly, cooking three heart-healthy meals a day. Stopping in at the shop several days a week and plowing through as much of the paperwork as he could before someone forced him out. Rehearsals with Vocal Adrenaline, as well as practices with Shelby or Zach. Studying every ( Read more... )

it's the scariest realisation ever that you don't know what you like, who you want to be. that you desperately think about dreams for yourself and come up with nothing. searching for new friends means searching for places to be, groups to join. but when you think what kind of activities you enjoy and come up with nothing it's frightening, it's like ( Read more... )

i thought i'd never let go of anime and manga, that if it's been with me for year it'd stay forever. but i am. i don't like it. even though i get craving to read and watch something, i can't really get into it. and it's been more than a year ( Read more... )

i don't remember what love is and how it feels so i watch klaine and just don't GET IT. i remember being in love, i faintly can call back memories, shadows of emotions, but i can't feel it. you can remember feeling but it's hard to remember how something felt. to just crave this other person, need them, want them close to you every second. to touch ( Read more... )

i have short (like boyish-short) black hair now and i feel fucking amazing. i missed my red head for two days but i'm in love now. i wonder if i'll go back to red for the winter.

some old notes from when i lived on my own:24.01.2011 2am: i felt homesick for a few seconds. my brother coughed and being immersed in the book, i thought it's the usual ( Read more... )

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when my shrink asked me what i wanted to do i was unable to tell her. because there's nothing i want and there's no one i see myself as in years time. then she proceeded to ask me what i like, what makes me happy and what i enjoy doing. and, at first, i was as blank as always but then i thought: clothesi love clothes. i love combining them, looking ( Read more... )

i just want to get drunk and play truth or dare again. or simply "bottle kiss". it always felt so awesome, so stupid, so mischievous, so teenage. basically, i want to be younger again. full of hope and naive about the world, thinking i know everything and that the possibilities are out there for me to grasp. full of faith in the future and sheer ( Read more... )

i wonder what my old and lost fandom friends are doing. it's been years. ecla, mommy, luxie, loki, kaini, eri. i wonder how their lives went, if they're accomplished. i hope they're happy. i hate internet friendships. when you lose them it hurts more than losing rl ones, for some reasons. maybe because there's basically no way for me to find out ( Read more... )

“You know,” Blaine says with a laugh that carries no amusement at all, “my parents got unlimited text messaging on my phone. But I haven’t texted anyone besides you or my mom to let her know that I’m on my way home from school or the library or our study sessions since I came out. I don’t have anyone to talk to. I don’t have anyone to go shopping ( Read more... )