Haven't posted for a while as my ED has been under control but couple of days ago its swooped back into me ( Read more... )

first post in 4 months ( Read more... )

i cant tell you guys how i feel right now ( Read more... )

Weaken drunken soul
Heart of numbness and despair
Shivers and electric shocks through my aching bones
I am lost in a darkening whirlpool
Suffocating with its tignhtening grip
Drowning in the darkened world of torture and torment
One speck of light, a million miles away
A lost ghost in floating ectasy of induced damage
I want to be free, I want to be me
Need ( Read more... )

sorry i havent been posting or commenting much lately ( Read more... )

im so excited/scared!! ahhh!
Broadway lodge (my rehab) just called me and im going to be admitted next Tuesday! OMDz
so i only have a week left!
Oh my dayz
so ill be gone for 4 months as of next tuesday
omg ...... omdz

lv emz xoxo

so ive uploaded these pics as im sick of people saying im pretty when i know im soooooo not!
and after taking a shower this morning i just had to show people what i truely look like (im still wearing  bit of foundation as my skin is incredibly bad!). so for those who dont have my fb or go on hear more than fb here ya go:

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Got some more drugs, managed to get more sleeping tablets: yay ( Read more... )

Thank fuck im seeing my doctor 2moro
Not only i am already vomiting bile every morning and have been having really bad acid reflex lately
I just vomited blood and my oesophagus feels like its burning

Fuck!

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ok ive written a paragraph for my statement...and due to it being so boring and annoying i kept procrastinating ( Read more... )