John met me at the Bean this evening and we actually had a fairly interesting and meaningful set of conversations. One of the topics we discussed was future occupations. So on the ride home, I started thinking about what is ahead of me in International Relations. Whenever I remind myself that that is what I am going into, I get really excited about ( Read more... )

I needed a place to rant. I needed a place to vent. I didn't know where else to turn. It is so much more difficult discussing issues and feelings in person. I never wanted to be so afraid. I never wanted to be so weak. But I am finding that I just can't get through this. I thought it would be easy enough, but it's so hard, and I do not have the ( Read more... )

Holy fuck. I feel like cutting some bitches and taking an axe to something. I regret ever showing anyone here JDramas, especially YOU KNOW WHO! Omg, go fuck yourself! She obsesses all the damn time and won't shut the fuck up. I want to strangle her. ARGH! All of a sudden she flaunts how into Japan and shit she is. No! NO! I'll fucking cut you, ho! ( Read more... )

I am in that mood again, and no it is not PMS. I feel so alone right now, and not just because I am alone in the room. I see everyone making lifelong friends here, but I can't get close enough to anyone. I don't know why. There's just something about me that drives people away. I yearn for what I had back home. Or maybe even more. I was looking at ( Read more... )

Well I am at college and I guess it isn't all that I expected. I wanted to fit in more than I am. It seems somewhat like high school, which sucks. Maybe it is because class hasn't started yet, so I am still keeping my hopes up that it will get better. Caitlin, my roommate, is great. She's very nice. We also formed a bond with our neighbor Lauren. ( Read more... )

So Camp was worthwhile. Pretty much everyone remembered me, which was exciting. I saw Claire, Jimmy, Malik, Erin, and Shannon and that made me happy. I still missed Amanda, Lian, Danielle, Mason, and Taylor, though, so that was a bummer. Next year I hope to visit for longer...maybe ( Read more... )

So, my cousin is on one of the newer episodes of MTV's Made. He isn't the main dude, though. He is one of the models in his friend's fashion show. It was pretty funny to see him on the teley, but also pretty cool ( Read more... )

I am so fucking pissed. I told my managers at Kohl's a few days ago that I was going out of town tomorrow, and they said they would find someone to take my shift. Today at work, there still wasn't anyone willing to cover me. Then they expect me to find someone at the last minute. I fucking hate it. I hate the people. I hate the job. I hate the ( Read more... )

[x] You know someone that cares about you ( Read more... )

Today, for track, we went in the pool. I liked it a lot. It was easy and fun, except tredding water became a bit of a bitch. Anyway, I was happy about that. I cleansed myself when I got home, and sat down and watched Oklahoma. Holy shit, that movie needs to be criticized, Andrea, again. The lesbians in the movie were pissing me off. They are ( Read more... )