i always laughed at the song from annie. you know the one that goes "it's a hard knock life?" it always made me laugh because i always felt that somehow life was never as hard as they made out. i mean sure life sucked sometimes but never enough to make much difference to anyone, especially not me. but these last few weeks have been a bloody roller ( Read more... )

you know if feels almost as if i am reconnecting where i have been disconnected for so long. for nearly five years i have been disjointed from society, from reality really. i didn't know who i was i didn't have any clue what i was doing and frankly i didn't give a fuck. a lot of people fell away from me in that time period. a lot of feelings and ( Read more... )

it is a weird feeling to look back on a life you've lived and feel like it was someone else's. it is so odd to think that maybe for once in your life you are different from the person that wrote those posts long ago. what is disconcerting is when you feel sadness from that old life. little seeping regrets that sometimes keep you up at night. ( Read more... )

i always seem to take forever in updating my journal. it is no longer really a journal for me but more a time for me to reflect upon my life since the last post and to cronicle my life in a place that cannot be lost with me. that said here is life for me since... i am officially a college student. it is odd to say so as it doesn't really seem like ( Read more... )

today was it. the last day of school. the end to something that has been a part of my life for four friggen years. i talk to my freinds and i read in cassie's journal about how they all feel like they have been used by the system, like they aren't themselves anymore and part of me sees where they're coming from. then the other part of me laughs. i ( Read more... )

the march moves inescapably, unceasingly, sometimes inopportunely, forward. college is becoming more and more of a reality. i am definitely going to augsburg with a full tuition scholorship. that makes me happy. but i find that some small part of me is beginning to dislike the idea of leaving some of the things behind that i know i will have to ( Read more... )

two months to schools end and i feel like i am about to embark on the coldest scariest adventure i will ever take. i exited beyond reason. college is now after twlve years finally merely a stones throw away it is exhilerating. it will offically be spring break next week and as always i find that i have a majory project underway. but its allright i ( Read more... )

it is interesting to now to come back to this, to read this and to see who it is i was. not a pretty picture folks not at all. i've changed so much. for the better i hope, but i really don't know. anyways i guess i owe the lot of you some kind of update so that the very few who cares anymore what goes on with me can know what exactly is going on ( Read more... )

1. Reply with your name and I will write something random about you ( Read more... )

a promise is a promise:
1. You have really cool hair.
2. "Unforgiven II" - Metallica.
3. Lemon.
4. I don't really have an insider with you. It seems like my entire aquaintence with you is one long insider.
5. A speech tournament, over a year ago.
6. Rabbit.
7. What are you trying to do?