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today was it. the last day of school. the end to something that has been a part of my life for four friggen years. i talk to my freinds and i read in cassie's journal about how they all feel like they have been used by the system, like they aren't themselves anymore and part of me sees where they're coming from. then the other part of me laughs. i dunno about you guys but i have been going through the motions for the past two years. i've gone where i wanted to when i wanted to. sure i've had to compromise a little bit but to all the nay sayers out their i tell you that as sad as it may be, compromise is a part of life. if you relinquish society in order to maintian who and what you are completely then you become a david throreigh avoiding taxes and eventually being brought in. life is one big compromise folks, no way around it. it is how you take that compromise that marks you as a drone or a human being. if you let it rule you, let it grind upon your mind and soul, or if you let it slide taking control, you are a drone. get past the compromises to what is really important. get to what makes us who we are. you haven't changed in highschool unless you've allowed yourself to do so. otherwise you are still your own person but more than likely you are in hiding. that is not a bad thing. it is the only way that one can stay sane in today's world. anyways life since last post. life is good. like i said earlier i graduated and it feels weird. i have been burning the candle on both sides to make sure all my assignements and papers are done and now their is nothing. i feel like i should be doing homework right now...but i'm not. i finally said "i love you" for the first time to michele. it is a feeling unlike any i have ever felt to be able to say i love you to someone and to know that it is true. it is another, amazing in its own right, when they return it to you, not as a parrot but in their own due time, right when the moment is perfect. i love the world, i love heavenly father, and i love michele.
live long prosper and may the gracious heavenly father be with you
Josh