I think it might be time to retire this journal. I've spent several years whining in it about my confusion and frustrations. Much of it about men. Most of it about one man in particular ( Read more... )

What do you see when you look in the mirror? Is it the same thing I see when I look at you? And if we see you differently, whose view is the warped one ( Read more... )

Something strange is happening tonight ( Read more... )

I think I'm getting depressed again. I'm not feeling overly down or anything, but the last couple of days I've been rather listless and blah. I'm still chatty and cheery with people, but when no one is looking I just feel.... I don't know. Sad? Empty? Lost? I'm not sure exactly what it is I'm feeling but it makes me breathe a little heavier again. ( Read more... )

I hung out with E the other day. We did a movie and a snack after. He paid for everything. And I was left wondering what it is that makes this not a date. What makes the difference between “dating” and “hanging out”? What is it that sets one person apart from another? And if “dating” and “hanging out” look exactly the same, how is anyone supposed ( Read more... )

Tonight we close another year. So now is a good time to look back over the past year and see where I’ve succeeded and where I failed with last year’s resolutions ( Read more... )

All my hard work gone, down the drain, up in smoke, or whatever other colorful description someone can think of. And why? All because he couldn't keep his hands off of me and I don't know when to keep questions to myself ( Read more... )

I have come to realize that there is a bit of internal dissonance when it comes to my desires and my ambition. It seems I desire that which I am unwilling to work for. I worry because my life does not look anything like what I hoped it would at this stage, and yet I make no effort to make the changes required to accomplish that ideal ( Read more... )

My birthday is quickly approaching. Everywhere I turn, it seems like someone is asking me the inevitable question: "So, what do you want for your birthday ( Read more... )

When I was little, I would imagine what it would be like when I finally fell in love ( Read more... )