i want a little house by the sea with a leaky roof, a cottage with screen windows where during thunderstorms the rain pours in and gathers on a floor and we have to put towels there to catch it and a tin bucket catches the leaks from the ceiling and we have a bed with creaky springs that is the best bed because we share it and we don't care about ( Read more... )

[picture of a two-year-old mark pouting next to a little white yorkie-ish dog. my scanner's broken, needs to be fixed ( Read more... )

i feel like a vegetable. i'm unmotivated to do the simplest things. i sit on facebook searching (well, aimlessly) through albums of people i once knew, or never really knew at all. what a weird peephole into someone else's life. i go on the livejournal jr___nal site looking at the works and lives of other people but can barely adequately live mine ( Read more... )

you say we're doing the right thing, but it doesn't feel like the right thing. rather, it feels that the right thing is our bodies touching, the taste of your mouth & if i close my eyes long enough i can almost remember and relive our first ( Read more... )

I saw Spring Awakening for the second time. This time, I think I almost liked it better. I felt more for it. The new cast - well, it was different... I definitely missed John Gallagher Jr., but the other Moritz was great. I preferred Alexandra Socha to Lea Michelle - she was a lot more genuine ( Read more... )

what the fuck is happiness, it's lost here, temporarily. a smile, a day, time with donnie, the smell of grass at the barn, cliches. maybe people, maybe people or things i love are important. but i'm sitting here writing and it's words, word vomit, like shannyn's monologue, the weight of the words is unbearable sometimes, the words "i can't do this ( Read more... )

I just finished the movie Blood Diamond, and can't stop crying. I'm scared, scared of terrorism and war but those.. those aren't everyday things here but I'm scared to write, admit their existance. And to think that, over something so materialistic, some innate greed as a fucking rock, a diamond, that thousands of people are being killed. To see ( Read more... )

i can't focus on work; i'm too upset, everything with mark is simply making everything harder. absence does not make the heart grow fonder. it ruins the heart ( Read more... )

i'm pretty new here but i saw this and thought it would be a fun idea. some parts of the day i couldn't take pictures of, but, well.. you'll see.

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I'm drained and overwhelmed, two feelings which have become almost normal lately. I'm crying still, but it's okay. I think it's going to be okay ( Read more... )