I know it's been some time since I've written anything down, and there are a lot of reasons for that. But I can't tell you how much life has changed since a year ago, and sometimes that seems important to note. Honestly, it's taken venturing to the brink of death and despair to finally start seeing with the fresh eyes that I've always believed in. ( Read more... )

It was August back when I wore all black ( Read more... )

what do we think about this?:
"A New Zero is committed to creating theatrical experiences that challenge and penetrate audiences through the raw and visceral power of music, the muscular charge of social consciousness, and the radical risk of human connection."

also, the uphill run is getting easier. I am a healthy person. more later.

I had a "Board meeting" for the company yesterday, and despite how productive and helpful it was, I'm still mentally deteriorating, right now. this may be because I went back to work today and it's such a big chunk of my day when NOTHING gets done. I'm trying to write a mission statement and it feels so personal that it's really taking a lot out of ( Read more... )

Ben came over as a last minute decision on Sunday night after taking a train back to NY from PA, and we watched Rocky Horror and squealed like little homos and got excited about everything that's happening. while I'm having a lot of anxiety, it's kind of truly thrilling to feel like people are taking me so seriously and that maybe there could be a ( Read more... )

I've been doing this uphill run as my cardio for a few weeks now and it's STILL not any easier. in fact, I find myself choking on my saliva because I can't breathe, and right now (post-run, shower, and sitting down for 10 minutes) I'm still red-faced. I guess that's a good thing. unfortunately, today, when I ripped off my hoodie triumphantly to ( Read more... )

the things that are going on... I'm planning theatre projects, it's a little hard to do completely alone, but I can't very well solicit help on shows that are pending. so, the official unofficial announcement is that everything is TBA. but it will all happen. I waited the requisite waiting time for a person in mourning for her life, and now I feel ( Read more... )

I'm going to try to start this business up again. It's been a while, but revisiting some of this journal has made me really see the importance of keeping a record ( Read more... )

it is 2008. this is my first entry of the year ( Read more... )

___ (10:59:29 PM): i want you to know ( Read more... )