new.
I've been doing this uphill run as my cardio for a few weeks now and it's STILL not any easier. in fact, I find myself choking on my saliva because I can't breathe, and right now (post-run, shower, and sitting down for 10 minutes) I'm still red-faced. I guess that's a good thing. unfortunately, today, when I ripped off my hoodie triumphantly to continue running in my sports bra, I gashed my stomach open on the little channel changer box for the TVs that's on the treadmill handlebar. so now I have a big cut on my belly. and I'm still red-faced.
I started a facebook group for the theatre company. I'm excited. it's an abortion- making a show, giving it away, letting it disappear into the annals of your photo albums and memories. the theatre company is going to be the baby I get to keep. and feed it and clothe it and spend lots of money on it until it's a successful grown-up person that can one day support me. right now it's a fetus though, so I have to be extra careful and take good care of myself so I don't lose the baby. and it's name is A New Zero. which is something that David Hibbard says, when you're working on a song, he says "Find a New Zero" which means start over, try a new tactic, go to that place of purity where nothing is overwrought anymore and approach your scene partner again with clarity. it always made me tingle when he said that. so all this time I've spent overwrought and anxious and with a furrowed brow is going to stop, right here, at a dynamic change in the music, and I'll offer something new. that goes for the work, too, I want each show to be a reevaluation, a new negotiation with the text. visceral, implicating things that wrench at your guts. mmmm. okay.
I started a facebook group for the theatre company. I'm excited. it's an abortion- making a show, giving it away, letting it disappear into the annals of your photo albums and memories. the theatre company is going to be the baby I get to keep. and feed it and clothe it and spend lots of money on it until it's a successful grown-up person that can one day support me. right now it's a fetus though, so I have to be extra careful and take good care of myself so I don't lose the baby. and it's name is A New Zero. which is something that David Hibbard says, when you're working on a song, he says "Find a New Zero" which means start over, try a new tactic, go to that place of purity where nothing is overwrought anymore and approach your scene partner again with clarity. it always made me tingle when he said that. so all this time I've spent overwrought and anxious and with a furrowed brow is going to stop, right here, at a dynamic change in the music, and I'll offer something new. that goes for the work, too, I want each show to be a reevaluation, a new negotiation with the text. visceral, implicating things that wrench at your guts. mmmm. okay.