I'm feeling the burden of this constant emersion in politics. It's suffocating. I mean, it is one thing to live through a major historical event and deal with the aftermath of those emotions and such. I remember feeling similarly as I do now when 9/11 happened. That sort of haze that overcomes you as you try to accept that this is actually reality ( Read more... )

The media didn't even wait 24 hours before they started back up on their usual schtick. Cautioning that *Trump supporters* may try to "retaliate" after what happened on Saturday. Blaming Trump himself for getting shot. Saying "his rhetoric" lead to this. Not their own and their leaders all calling him Hitler and his supporters Nazis for the past ( Read more... )

My mood *had* toned down a bit, until 20 minutes ago. Now I am blazing twice as hot as I was yesterday ( Read more... )

Guess whose cat returned early trying to kill more birds, now with a collar on. Of course it was hers. We knew all along it was her cat and so did she ( Read more... )

I'm getting a little tired of the topic of my family. There has been an overall sense of wanting to move on from them for months now. Yet, I continue to analyze and also ingest new material about narcissism and toxic family dynamics. Every topic, every video, it all seems to cast light on the darkness, so to speak ( Read more... )

I've really been plummeting down a rabbit hole with all this analysis and reflection on my family and the reality of my experiences within that structure. I understand I cannot change anything. Nor is this necessarily about blaming anyone. It's more like just this cascade effect, where I saw one or two things, or better said I had revelations about ( Read more... )

Today felt like it was over in the blink of an eye. We had no plans, which turned into spending a huge amount of money anyway. Funny how that happens ( Read more... )

It feels like Thursday. I don't know why, seeing as I've not really altered my usual "slow week" schedule. I did not end up going to the Meat Packer yesterday because the owner is ghosting me. You'd think he'd have the courtesy to respond to my text, but I am nothing to him but a Borg in an alcove that he is only required to interact with when he ( Read more... )

It was inevitable, yet I somehow fooled myself into thinking it'd be left alone ( Read more... )

It was a rough night thanks to some eggnog I had. Or at least that's what I am assuming, since I've not heard of anyone else feeling sick from the food. It was spiked eggnog, and I know I started to feel indigestion after my second glass. After we went to bed, I was back up after 11 puking in the bathroom. The rest of the night my stomach was doing ( Read more... )