Bones Fanfic: Stuck In A Moment (22/27)

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Title: Stuck In A Moment 
Author: biba79 
Disclaimer: Characters aren’t mine, they belong to Hart Hanson.
Pairings/Characters: Booth/Brennan
Rating: T
Summary: An event tests Booth and Brennan's relationship. Booth kept telling himself that it would take time, and he needed to be patient. Will they be able to get through it? Future Fic! B/B!
Word Count: 12,025
Spoiler: None
Preview Chapters: One - Two - Three - Four - Five - Six - Seven - Eight - Nine - Ten - Eleven - Twelve - Thirteen - Fourteen - Fifteen - Sixteen - Seventeen - Eighteen - Nineteen - Twenty - Twenty-One - Twenty-Two: Part One


“Then you got kidnapped by the gravedigger too, and I thought you were dead. I thought I’d lose you forever! And it killed me a little inside, while you were missing, a little of my heart died thinking you might not come out alive or we would never find you. And even when we got you back and you survived... I lost some part of me… but I tried to get it back. And then you had your brain tumor, and I was so sure I was going to lose you that time. Tragedy only strikes the same person so many times, and I was running out of mine, you survived again. We had another chance. We got married and I thought ‘okay now it’s going to be good.’ I knew it wouldn’t be easy… not with us… never with us! But I never expected how good it was, so perfect!” Brennan’s eyes regretted losing that perfection. “It was so good, and then we got pregnant with Cooper and it was better, everything was good again. I didn’t think it could be any better, and just when I trusted it would be... I almost lost you so many times.”

“But we made it through all that, Bones… don’t you see?” Booth’s voice was cajoling.

She continued talking not willing to hear him. “Then finally the baby came, Cooper, so beautiful and sweet and everything was good. But every time we started to breathe easy. Booth, every time! Enough! I was ready to fight… for our life for our happiness.”

“Then fight now, damn it, fight now.” Booth’s pleas went unanswered.

“Cooper is the best part of us. And we began to be so happy, I mean really happy again, gut-wrenchingly happy like you like to say.” The emotions that she had held inside all this time came whooshing out and filled her eyes. The old Brennan was talking now, not the stranger with any emotions, tears were making tracks on her cheeks as she spoke. “I figured we couldn’t have much more joy! And that was okay, I was content with what we had. But then we found out about Liz coming. I was so thrilled about her... but I didn’t even tell you right away, I was so afraid to trust that things could be so blissfully perfect. And then when I began to trust it again, I told you, because I wanted you to feel the way I did. And you did, your face the night I told you... we were going to be the family I always dreamed about secretively, a family that could NEVER be broken. But Liz....” Her eyes showed the pain that saying her name brought.

“Bones…. ” Booth felt his own pain more deeply.

“No!” Her woeful cry was heart crushing. “Liz! Losing her… after everything… I can’t handle anymore. Maybe you and I are the reason, maybe we are NOT meant to be happy, at least not for long. You know maybe it’s a good thing you’ve fallen for someone else… Maybe you’re right; maybe I did push you to her. It would never have worked anyway if we stayed together… we’d manage to find a way to be miserable, and if we didn’t find a way, I think it would find us! I can’t do it anymore. No more! I want you to go and don’t ever come back! Do you hear me? It’s over!”

“I haven’t, I haven’t fallen for someone else… not the way I love you, never the way I love you. I just needed her. Because I needed you! I’ve always needed you before I even knew it. And I still do! God, Bones, I’m begging you! I didn’t want this! I didn’t want to go, I never wanted to go, and I didn’t want this! All I wanted was you, baby! I needed you, I need you!” Booth pleaded with tears cascading down his cheek.

“Don’t! Don’t ask me for what I don’t have anymore…I can’t give anymore. I’m drained. I’m tired. I need peace. I just need peace!” Her voice was a high-pitched plea.

“I need peace too! You are never going to have peace the way you’re going, Bones! You’re dying. You’re killing yourself with grief! You can’t keep doing this!”

“I can’t stop. I don’t want to stop, if I stop thinking about her, if I forget… I have to keep her here.” Brennan touched her head with her hand. “If I let her go… she’ll be gone… I can’t LET her go… I can’t live without her! She’s my baby! She’s my baby!” Brennan’s motherly cried wrenched Booth’s heart in two.

“I know…. I know, baby! But you have to let me help you, you won’t lose her ever, she’ll always be in your heart, the way you, Parker and Cooper are in mine, will always be in mine. We need each other, Bones, we always have and we always will!” Booth pleaded for his life.

“No! That was true once, but it’s not anymore! We just aren’t meant to be anymore, I know it, you have to know it too, a part of you does, or you could never have kissed someone else… you don’t love me anymore… you only feel guilty, that’s not love!”

“No! Don’t you see, Bones? We are meant to be together. For all the reasons you are saying, not because we have so much pain, but because we need each other to get through it, together. Not apart, we were meant to be. Nothing and no one will ever convince me that we are wrong… ever!” Booth’s eyes were on fire with his conviction.

“No!” Her voice broke and she put her hands up to stop his approach to help her up. “It’s over and the sooner you accept this, the easier it will be on every one, Cooper included.”

“I won’t let you take my son with you on this path to disintegration! No way, if I go, he goes with me!” Booth’s eyes bored into her, he meant every word. All the fear and anger he was feeling took over.

“You won’t let it happen? Who the hell are you to decide? You’ve been unfaithful, or as close to it as it gets! No judge in the world will give you full custody!”

“The hell they will! And let me tell you this, if my kissing someone is unfaithful, then tell me what you have been. You’ve been unfaithful too, by shutting me out and shoving me away! You turned your back on me! I’d never have been anywhere but by your side, going through this nightmare with you! You didn’t want me! You blame me but I didn’t bring this on us! I didn’t ask for this anymore than you did!”

“I only have enough love left for our son, do you get that? I’m empty, Booth. When she left, she took so much of my love with her... I don’t have anything left for you.”

“Really, you don’t have anything left for Cooper either? Because the mother you were is gone! You’re not the loving sweet woman you were, Did Liz take that too? I can’t do this anymore; I can’t allow my son to suffer the way you’re making him suffer! I won’t have my son torn in two!”

“I would never hurt him. How can you say that?” Brennan’s voice shook as the cold consumed her.

“You hurt him every day! You have isolated him here in this mausoleum that used to be a home! Look at what you are doing to him!” Booth needed her to hear him; he needed her to feel something again. He had almost gotten through to her, he couldn’t let her go, not after touching her again, holding her again, feeling her lips on his one more time. How could he ever let that go?

“I love him! You won’t take him from me!” Brennan found some strength in needing to protect her son.

“That’s where you are wrong… I will take him. You want to know, fine. You go ahead and cut me out of your life, Bones. Then you’ll see what I’ll do!”

“You wouldn’t be that cruel. That’s not you!”

“Try me. Cooper deserves better than you!” He wanted to bite out his tongue when he saw the pain he inflicted at those words.

Brennan’s sobs reached the base of her throat as she held onto the sink for support. “Get out!” She told him so quietly.

He lifted his hand to reach out to her, but he remembered the agony he felt at her every rejection, and his hand dropped.

“Fine… yeah I’ll go. Goodbye, Bones.” His words hissed at her with all the anger he had held inside for months. He no longer wanted to try; he had his own pain, his own loss to deal with. “You’re as good as dead, I don’t have a wife anymore, and the woman I knew is dead!” He couldn’t stop the final crushing blow of words.

He walked out about to head down the stairs. His hair was plastered to his head still dripping, his slacks made sloshing noises as his soaked shoes made squeegee sounds along the floor. But something propelled him to her door. One last look was all he wanted. He wanted to feel close to her again.

He stood in front of the door much as he had months ago the day he had moved out. His hand reached for the handle, and he found it was locked. Something inside of him exploded. His dripping shoe kicked at the door. In ONE furious shove, he plowed through it. No one would keep him from feeling close to her, no one could deny him what little was left of his little girl.

He ignored the splintered door, as he walked in slowly. The room was dark kept in the grave, like the rest of the house. Not his little Liz, she couldn’t be in the dark, not ever. He went to the windows and opened the shades, letting the light rays filter in.

Brennan heard the crashing door. She sat slumped down on the bathroom floor crying softly. She listened for more banging, knowing Booth was filled with anger and rage. She rose slowly, walking across the now flooded floor, and risked further inundation by leaning in to turn off the still running shower. She walked out the doorway towards her bedroom to change when she heard his harsh tortured sobs. She stopped, listening to them, unable to block the sound of his grief from her heart.

She took a few tentative steps then she heard him speaking, taking gulping breaths as he cried out.

“I’m so sorry, baby… Daddy is sorry. I never meant to let anything happen to you… I was supposed to protect you! That’s what Daddy’s do.”

Brennan took a few more steps to the broken room, what used to be a room filled with love, laughter, giggles and nightly tickle sessions.

Booth was on his knees by the bed as if in prayer. His hand was wrapped around the white bed post, for support as he rocked on his knees, his body wet and shivering as he continued to talk to his baby girl.

“I loved you… I was in a meeting… and I didn’t have a phone on me…” He gulped as his words were muffled. “I would have been there sooner, Liz… I would have… God, I would have!”

Brennan was standing a few feet away. Booth didn’t hear her.

“I was on my way princess. I swear I was… the damn traffic. I got out..... I ran and ran.....I wanted to be with you so much… I wanted to save you, but I couldn’t.”

“Booth…”

He turned slowly, not really registering her presence.

She took in his haggard face, the droop of his shoulders.

“You were right, Booth,” her voice broke at the thought of going on without Cooper at her side. “You should take Cooper… you were right…. I’m not fit to take care of him, not now anyway! I wasn’t there for Liz… ”

Her teary voice incriminated herself as her thoughts had continuously. “I wanted to be so much…. I can’t
give Cooper what he needs…. I’m not even sure he knows how much I love him. I wonder if Liz did.”

Booth heard her recriminations, he couldn’t bear to see her so unsure of the love her children had for her. He managed to compose himself a little.

“Bones, she knew. How could she not?” His voice was raspy with emotion. “You showed it to her every day. I remember you would comb her hair and put in her favorite butterfly clips.” He smiled through the tears as he remembered. “She would smile that big, big grin. After she would look at herself in the mirror, then I would see her eyes looking at you, when you didn’t notice. They were full of love for you.”

Brennan was softly weeping leaning against the jammed door.

“She loved you. Every time you sat on the floor and played dolls with her. Don’t you remember how she would suddenly burst out with ‘I love you, Mommy! Can I kiss You, Mommy?’ Don’t you remember that, Bones?”

“Yes.” Brennan walked a little further into the room. Her eyes took it all in. The shelves lined with all the books and trinkets Brennan had painstakingly chosen, making sure everything came together, a symphony of color and light to make her little princess happy. She had loved every moment with her. How she had cherished her baby girl! How she longed to see her in this room again, to hold her, to cuddle her and teach her everything. So much was left unspoken, so many things yet to do together. The sorrow of being in this room without her was almost too much.

“You are the best Mom in the world! No one would have been better for our children. No one could have loved them more or better. No one.”

“Then if that’s true, why do you want to take him away from me?” The torturous look in her eyes made it impossible for him to hurt her. He didn’t want to take anything more from her, she had had enough taken.

“I don’t.” Booth’s eyes told her, his hands wanted to touch her so badly. He fought to stop them from moving involuntarily, instinctively he knew how she felt. He had memorized each soft curve, and he longed to return to her.

“Booth… I wasn’t there.” Brennan looked at him defying him to say that it was okay. It wasn’t okay, it would never be okay. He was silent. He wouldn’t look into her eyes, she wondered again why whenever she said it, he couldn’t look at her. Was it because he blamed her too?

Booth heard all the aching blame in her voice self directed. He could hardly stand it anymore.

“And now with Cooper, I know I’m screwing it up, but I can’t stop. I have to protect him. You don’t
understand; you were there. You are handling it. You will survive it. I’m not so sure I can. Not even for my son!” She said it again. “You were there. I couldn’t be there.” The devastation of that day would never leave her. “I hate that you were there and I wasn’t. I wanted to be the one!” Brennan admitted the most horrifying truth of all.

Booth’s eyes registered shock. He knew he had to tell her. He shook his head, as he was about to enter his own coffin. This would bury them forever. He had done it out of love and love only. But would she ever understand that? He got to his feet feeling as though he was in another realm, this couldn’t really be happening.

“I lied, Bones.” His eyes stared straight into her soul; he was facing his final judge and jury. He had done it out of love.

“What are you talking about?” She had no idea.

“I didn’t tell you everything about the day Liz died.” Booth’s throat was parched as he tried to find the courage to tell her. Knowing he would be making her worst fears a reality, hoping she would understand how much he had tried to protect her.

“I didn’t make it.” He swallowed the lump that had been growing in his throat ever since that fateful day.

Brennan’s eyes widened in shock as she realized what Booth was saying. She inhaled in a deep gasp as she came to understand what he meant. “What do you mean you didn’t make it?”

Booth head was downcast but he forced himself to look straight into her eyes. “I wasn’t there… she died without either one of us.” The heartache he had been hiding cracked in his voice. The anguished tears fell down his cheeks. He stopped wondering if she had heard him.

“How could you let me think… Oh… you let her die alone?!” She was furious.

“Yes.” His one gasping breath of confession and truth hit her like an avalanche.

“She was alone?!” Brennan’s felt his betrayal as if the knife handle was sticking out her back. “How could you not tell me? Our baby died all alone? How could you not get there! Booth, was that meeting so important? You Coward! Not telling me, all this time… you bastard!” She backed away feeling the most protective blinding fury at the knowledge that her daughter had not had him either! She went away all by herself; no one to hold her hand and to say goodbye to. No one to tell her everything would be okay.

“I’m sorry, Bones.  I’m so sorry.” His voice broke with all the pent up emotions, he had held for months, he was prepared to hold for years to protect her, forever if it was necessary.

“She had no one!” Her eyes consumed his, wanting answers.

“I tried, God… I swear to you, I tried!”

Brennan’s eyes emitted the betrayal she felt. Her heart broke as she realized her worst fear had happened, her baby had been alone. No one to hold her or whisper words of love; no one to wipe away the beads of fever from her brow. Only strangers, no family, no loved ones. She had come into their world to be greeted by joyous cheers and happy smiles. She had been cuddled and treasured beyond words. And now, to find she had left their world with nothing, no one to make the transition easy or to help her go without fear...

“Why in the HELL didn’t you tell me?” Brennan was feeling a rage she hadn’t felt before; she didn’t think it was possible to be angrier. But she was crazy with rage, white hot fuming fury!

“I had to call you and tell you Liz was sick.” Booth’s eyes were haunted by the memories. “You were gone because of me. I was in at that stupid meeting, Caroline had to come and tell me, when Maddie called but she was already at the hospital with Liz. I don’t know how much time passed before Caroline got the call and got to me. It was maybe an hour before I even got the message. I ran to my car, I got on the freeway to get to the hospital. There was a traffic jam, awful, maybe it was a pile up, I don’t know.”
He was talking fast because he had to get this out once and for all and it was as if he was so shaken inside it was spewing it at long last his deception was over!

“I called the hospital to tell them and they told me to hurry.” Booth’s voice was cracked and raw with emotion as finally he admitted what he had needed to share with her.

Brennan stood there her hands molded into fists as she heard his confession. Her eyes on him were cold, and unyielding.

Booth looked around the room, eyes not focusing as he was drawn back into the nightmare. “I got out of the car so fast. I don’t think I even turned it off. I could hear people yelling and screaming and horns honking, but I didn’t care. I ran. I cut through all the damn cars; I didn’t know what to do. I just had to get
to the hospital. I had your car, so I didn’t have any way to get to the hospital faster. I finally found a cop car in the middle of the mess. I explained that I need to get to the hospital. I don’t remember what the hell I said exactly, but he believed me. He was able to get me out of the mess, and he called the traffic helicopter to take me to the hospital. I got to the hospital, I ran to an elevator. I was so relieved to be there, I thought everything would be okay, it had to be okay.”

Brennan felt the weakening in her legs as she heard the truth.

“I got off on the floor where they said she was. I was yelling telling them I was her Dad! They wouldn’t let me in. I didn’t see their faces, I was going crazy. If I had looked into their eyes, I would have known.” His eyes were dripping with tears as he relived the most heartbreaking moment of his life.

“Finally, two of the orderlies held me back, and they told me.” His face reflected the same horror he felt in those moments. “They told me that Liz was gone!” Booth’s cries of desolation rang in Brennan’s ear as she heard the words. “I was too late. She was gone. They couldn’t save her!” He moaned as the pain reverberated over him once again.

Brennan wanted to reach out to him to comfort him, but her anger at his deception was too strong. How could he have kept this from her, she had every right to know.

“I went into shock, I couldn’t believe it. How could she be gone?”

Hot tears were coursing down Brennan’s face.

“How could she leave us?” Booth questioned for the millionth time.

“I called you from the plane.” Brennan’s own memories were fresh and raw as if it was only the day before.

“Yeah, I knew then.” He looked up into her eyes, his head tilted in sorrow, his eyes asking for mercy. “I couldn’t tell you, not on the phone. I mean you were going out of your mind as it was. I knew that you would be alone. I couldn’t let you know when you were alone!” Booth shook his head as he remembered the call and how he barely managed to utter the lie that he knew would hold her together till she got there. ‘She’s not responding to treatment.’ It was as close to the truth as he dared to get, and even then he was afraid she would see through it. “I wanted to be there to hold you; I wanted to be there for you. I wasn’t there for her.” His guilt sounded so familiar, she knew it so well.

“This is the most callous cruel thing you have ever done! You let me believe I was the one who failed her! You let me hold on to all this guilt. You never said a word!” She backed further away from him. “How can you even look at yourself in a mirror? You are a hypocrite!”

Booth felt the force of her anger. It was almost a relief to hear her yelling at him again, even if it was over. It was a relief. His eyes stared straight ahead she knew now, no more secrets. But now he couldn’t look at her, he couldn’t face the wounds he had inflicted yet again.

“I couldn’t, I just couldn’t. Do you think I want you to have anymore pain? Do you think I don’t know what you’ve been through? I know, I caused some of it, the things with faking my death, I know I did. And this time, I could spare you; I could be your protector for once. There was nothing I could do for our baby girl, but for you, I had to do it for you!”

“You should have told me, I don’t need you to protect me!” Brennan wouldn’t listen. “You were the one protecting yourself, not me. How dare you say this was for me? I have been going through hell.”

“You have been going through hell?” His anger returned at her words. How could she be so cold? “What about me, Bones? Do you really think this has been a walk in the park for me?”

Brennan remained silent, her eyes boring into him waiting for him to tell her the rest.

“I wanted to tell you then and there, but you asked to go in and see her! Remember? I hadn’t gone in yet. I knew if I had gone in to see her. If I spoke with you over the phone, you would know. I wouldn’t have been able… ” His voice crumbled at the heartbreak renewed inside him. “I knew. I could never keep it from you.”

“You knew she was already dead when I called… you knew!” Brennan didn’t get his logic. She had a right to know about her little girl! How could he have let her go on hoping when it was over? How could he let her believe when there was nothing left to believe in?

“I was going to tell you, but you were, Bones, it was too much for you to handle. You were on the plane for God’s sake, what would you have done if I told you? It wouldn’t have been right.”

“Who the hell are you to decide what’s right?”

“I’m your husband! You were alone; I wanted to tell you myself in person, not on a damn phone! Hate me if you want, I don’t care. I would do it the same way again! I did what was best!”

She felt the tears burning in her eyes.

“You don’t remembered everything, Bones. There is no way you could.” Booth informed her.

“Suppose you tell me what happened then, Booth that I have forgotten.” Brennan doubted very much she had forgotten one moment of that nightmare!

“We were in the waiting room and you asked to see her. I took you in, you were hysterical. You grabbed her into your arms and you wouldn’t let her go.” Booth’s eyes focused now on her face, he saw how intently she was listening. It gave him a ray of hope. “You held her; you were talking to her about how sorry you were not to be there. You were insane with grief. Then you looked at me and you said it over and over. ‘Daddy was here. It’s okay.  I’m so sorry, but you had Daddy. I’m so glad you didn’t go alone.’ You were in bad shape, Bones. The doctor had to sedate you to get you to let go of her. I couldn’t take that away from you. It was too much, I was afraid you would have a breakdown if you knew.”

Brennan vaguely remembered what he told her. But the memories were foggy. “Go on.” She wanted to know everything.

“I wanted to hold her too! I wanted to say how sorry I was, I wanted to, but I couldn’t. You believed I already had, so I let you go on. I decided not to ever tell you when I saw how much comfort you took in believing I was there. I wanted to harbor you from it, I wasn’t protecting myself I swear it. It was for you, Bones. I couldn’t protect Liz anymore. I had to at least try to protect you, baby.” Booth’s eyes implored her to believe him.

She remembered the times he had gone way overboard, and how much it had nearly cost them. She knew this was Booth; take him or leave him, it’s him.

“Bones, I love you. That’s the reason for everything, my love for you. You have to believe that. No matter
what pain I have caused you, no matter what we have gone through, even Liz. I wouldn’t trade one moment of my life with you. I wouldn’t.” Booth’s voice trailed knowing she didn’t feel that way.

“You lied to me that day, I understand why, but it’s been months! You’ve kept the lie, the deception. Did you really think I’d be able to forgive you after all this time?”

“The doctors were very concerned for you; they said you needed to be kept as stress free as possible, not to expect too much. No stress! They recommended grief counseling. I told you, but you refused. You fought everything I tried to do; it was like you already knew! The way you treated me sometimes, it seemed like my just punishment.”

Brennan remembered all the fights well. She was glad she punished him, he deserved every bit! He let her go on believing the lie, and he knew what it was doing to her. He let it continue so he could escape.
And what better escape than a good old-fashioned affair with someone who would give him the sympathy he thought he should be getting from her!

“I had to protect you. Losing Liz... ” Booth’s voice was a whisper now. “I couldn’t bear to lose anything else.”

He laughed somberly. “I’ve lost everything now, but I would do it again in a heartbeat. Because I love you, Bones. If you never believe another thing I say, you should believe that! You, Parker and Cooper, I don’t have a life without my family.”

“No!” Brennan wouldn’t give him what he wanted. She couldn’t, and she wouldn’t ever be able to forgive him for this! “I hate you for doing this to me. You should have told me. There’s no excuse for this, I had a right to know about it. You had no right, you lied to me. You didn’t do this for me; you did it because you are so damn guilty. And now you have gotten yourself another woman, who understands your grief. So, get the hell away from me and be with her. I don’t need your kind of love and I never have.” Brennan was panting with the wrath of her hate, she would never forgive him.

“No, Bones. No!” Booth felt like the floor was opening and he was being swallowed by one hundred hungry monsters. He fell to his knees. This couldn’t be happening; she was doing what he had feared she would do all along. She had trusted him; she had taken his word. And he had lied. In the name of love, he had kept up the pretense. He hadn’t realized it would hurt her in the long run; he had never wanted to hurt her. “I didn’t do it to hurt you. You have to believe that!”

“And you didn’t kiss Emma Foster with that in mind, I’m sure. I mean what’s one lie on top of another? For all I know, you’ve slept with her too! I can’t believe anything you tell me anymore!”

“I love you. I love you, Parker and Cooper and I wish Liz hadn’t died.” Booth was despondently hearing her say she hated him, it took his spirit away. He feared that the most. He couldn’t live with Brennan hating him.

“Yeah, well, we can’t all get what we want, can we Booth?”

“Don’t do this, Bones. Please, I didn’t do anything willingly to hurt you; I didn’t want to leave this house, leave you or Cooper and I still don’t!”

“You get the hell out of my house.” She screamed until her body was trembling with the effort.

“I don’t want Emma, I want you.”

“You don’t get to choose me, because I don’t choose you. I will never choose you again. You have worn out your welcome here. It’s over. I want you out of my life, and if you try to take my son away, I will fight you with every last breath I have. And make no mistakes, Booth; it will get dirty. Don’t forget I know things about you no one else knows. You are unfaithful, not a year after our daughter’s death. What kind of moral example is that for raising a child? At least I’m honest about my feelings, Booth. Get out of here, and don’t ever come back.” Brennan’s eyes were burning with hatred. “I’m glad Liz is not here to see what a sniveling coward her father is. I’m glad she can’t see you now. She looked at you as though you were her hero and you let her down. You let us all down. Don’t make me drag you through the mud, Booth. Because it will get uglier than you can even imagine. There are witnesses, neighbors who have seen you in public with Emma. And there’s Cam. I will subpoena her.” Brennan took a deep breath to control her sobs, “You could have told me a hundred times, and you didn’t. I find that reprehensible and unforgivable. Get out. I hate you.” She cried out over and over again.

Booth got to his feet slowly, he felt like he was in a drunken stupor, all the emotions have left him drained and exhausted. He stumbled past her through the broken doorway, heading down the stairs, leaving Brennan all alone just the way she wanted. She crumbled on Liz’s bed holding the comforter to her mouth to block out her wailing sobs.

A/N: I know it seems like the end of the world, but it isn’t. You all gotta trust me on that. I made a promise and I intend to keep it. Please tell me what you thought of this chapter? I’m anxiously waiting to read your reviews, so review away and thanks for reading it, we are almost to the end.