It's funny how the more things change, the more they stay the same ( Read more... )

I haven't updated since October... I'm a bad LJ-er. Turns out real life has been kicking me in the ass enough, the urge to rehash it on journal form just isn't there anymore. le sigh ( Read more... )

I'm confused, but in that way where it's completely clear what I need to do. The confusion has nothing to do with not knowing what, how, or why -- it's the confusion associated with an uncertain future. Confusion of trying to figure out what to do when you can't do what you've always done. When it's too late to start over. When I can't discern ( Read more... )

I have the worst timing in the world. It figures that you come back around not even a full 12 hours after I've crossed the line and had sex with someone else. I finally thought I was over you, I finally thought I could walk away and never look back. I was ready to leave you in the past and move on the only way I know how. I'm not proud of ( Read more... )

I hate not knowing what I want. Confusion and uncertainty are my ultimate nemeses.

I just wish things could finally be easy, that finally everything would go the way it's supposed to just once. Is that so much to ask?

Maybe it's all for the best. Maybe this is the last straw. Maybe I can be strong this time.

So it turns out it's not over after all ( Read more... )

It's over.

I wish I hadn't found out from drunk people at the bar, but I guess I'll take what I can get. You obviously can't seem to get the balls up to tell me yourself, but sending the message through your ex-roommates and my best friend definitely did the trick.

Fucking coward.

(so far, not a tear shed. I'm better than your sorry

It's been two days and I'm already over this school year ( Read more... )

I never update during the summer. I was noticing that last year, that I probably made all of like 4 or 5 updates during the entire 3-month span of summer break, and I remember thinking that was weird. Meh. To echo the sentiments of many others lately, I concur that LJ is most definitely dieing (dying? why can't I spell anymore?) out ( Read more... )

Oy... I told him about the surgery. He was actually extremely cool about the whole thing, as countless people assured me he would be. Still, it's a relief to have it out in the open and not feel like I'm inadvertently hiding things from him. I think he interpreted my telling him as sort of asking him for his opinion, which wasn't the intention, ( Read more... )