when you don't know me anymore...

[beyond_belief]

I'm confused, but in that way where it's completely clear what I need to do. The confusion has nothing to do with not knowing what, how, or why -- it's the confusion associated with an uncertain future. Confusion of trying to figure out what to do when you can't do what you've always done. When it's too late to start over. When I can't discern what it's going to be like just to wake up every day without you. How do I learn to breathe again, to live again, to be just me without that other person that has been a part of me for so long? Is it strange that I don't remember me without you?

I hate not knowing what the future holds. I feel so powerless.

how's it gonna be
when it goes down
how's it gonna be
when you're not around
how's it gonna be
when you found out there was nothing
between you and me
cuase i don't care
how's it gonna be?

What am I supposed to do when I see you out? Do we say hi? Will you still laugh with me, park next to me, buy me drinks at the bar? Are we friends... have we ever been friends? Do we even know how to be friends?

i wanna get myself back in again
the soft dive of oblivion
i wanna taste the salt of your skin
the soft dive of oblivion

and how's it gonna be
when you don't know me anymore
how's it gonna be....

.... how's it gonna be?