Well I'm feeling a bit better now. Played a couple games of WOW. It's amazing how sometimes being forced to fake that you feel ok and do something can shake you out of your head and make you feel better. I guess they're right and it is all in my head. Or maybe not....

I still say that distraction is the best medicine for depression, forget pills and ( Read more... )

 Well here we are in the next year 9 days in infact. I wrote my 2007 post on the 10th day, maybe in 2016 I will write it on the 1st (wow that took too much brain power to figure out ( Read more... )

Well what a year that was ( Read more... )

Seems like a lot of people have updated and it feels like a while since I have so here goes.

Well hopefulluy here goes my fingers feel like blocks of ice.

On a normal day I would be heading out to work in a bit but today I am waiting for the bed for the spare room to arrive so I am still at home. Will leave the PC in a bit and do some house work, but ( Read more... )

 Wow I have finally made the time to come in here and make a proper post.

Have been meaning to for so long that I am not sure where exactly to start.

Life status updates first:

Working p/t at fanboy3 (www.fanboy3.co.uk), tues-fri and sunday. Also playing wow there (with sams cards) on a weds and boardgaming on a sun
Still living with Sam, in my own ( Read more... )

I'm not depressed as such, just feeling a bit down. Tired, end of pms, jab, winter months and the whole sam situation cumulates in a sad dans. But sad is ok, better than depression and not half as impacting. I haven't given up. I am still of the belief that I will beat this, but I am taking a small short break, listening and feeling, some call it ( Read more... )

Ok

I've been feeling alone lately, maybe a bit lost too. Worried that I won;t beat this thing, that it is like all the other times and I will fall. But I realised some more things today.

I need to be alone for what I am trying to do. Part of my personality which I need to change is my dependancy, I need to kick it. And to do that I need to be alone ( Read more... )

Loaded title hey?

When I was younger I used to be scared of getting better from this depression. It was a giant piece of me. Without the depression who on earth am I?

When with Sam I was scared of loosing him. He was also a giant piece of me. Without Sam who am I?

Now I don't have Sam. Now I am trying to loose this depression. Who will I be? Where ( Read more... )

Feeling a bit blargh this evening ( Read more... )

Theres a lot I want to do. Really alot. If I make a to-do list its pages and that doesnt even include some stuff. Its easy to get overwhelmed by  it all.  I have been a busy busy girl tofday andf still I have not dfone all I wanted to do.  I have attacked the kitchen (just the oven and tupperware bit to do. And I have attacked the backlog of ( Read more... )