Music and movies are amazing! I have watched an insane amount of movies as of late and have actaully learned a great deal about culture while simultaneously being entertained. For instance, before school began I was treated to the last installment in the Godzilla saga for the decade. I had known very little or had any previous experience with the ( Read more... )

I was reading through some of my old journal entries last night and was intrigued by some of my thoughts and feelings and at the time how extremely important they all were to me. Some of the situations expressed back then are not close to relevant today, but when I read them, it is as if I'm experiencing it all over again. I think there is some ( Read more... )

I couldn't sleep, so I have been reading some of my past live journal entires and have alot of thoughts stirring aorund right now. Since it is rather late and I do need to be up for class in several hours, I will hold off for a bit - but once I return I'm most likely going to write in here on a regular basis again!

Until tomorrow...

It was all so surreal. It had been a long time since I experienced something this... I had forgotten such evil exists. Why do I get shut out so you can create your own hell? What is it you saw in me to draw me to you even when I resisted? Then I fall for you... it isn't enough, you are always lookign for somethign better. What if I'm not the best? ( Read more... )

That is how long the car ride home was. Tonight I went to one of my aunt's and uncle's surprise 50th wedding anniversary. That in intself was pretty cool I must admit, as I used to visit them and the rest of the family on a regualar basis as a child. Those were such good times, but are now nothing more than distant memory that was my past. Me and ( Read more... )

Wow, what an awesome night/morning! I'm actually not being sarcastic eaither lol. I'm so hyper! Anyhow, to get back on track here... I used to have a pen pal some time ago. Her name was Valeria and she was from Italy! We met on a message board like 2 years ago and talked nearly every night. She taught me so much about her country and things and ( Read more... )

All I can think about is her. It feels too right not to do anythign more about it. It tears me up inside to think that maybe I can't - to lose that opportunity forever.

I am so confused. My heart tells me something completely diferent compared to what I think or is practical. I wish I had a better way to cope with it - to find some balance there. I try really try hard to imagine myself with someone else and it just dosen't feel right. I still think about her constantly and how she would make me happy. I don't want ( Read more... )

This is my first first poem for nearly a month ( Read more... )

I talked to her. She made me feel really good and it was relieving to finally let her know how I feel, especailly after so long. I am looking forward to us continuing out friendship because it has always been a priority to me ( Read more... )