What can I say? I just really miss her and I think about her still to this moment as if I'm missing something really important... as if she's the part of me that always feel empty - but if I go much longer I will hit rock bottom. I don't know if I'm making sense myself, and even if I could explain myself to her or to anyone they wouldn't have a ( Read more... )

Journal or whatever. Tonight I played hanfgman with a friend and went on a walk. Also wahted the wizzard of ozz to Pink Floyd. Irt was specatular. I liekd it alot... And I 'm a little bit pissed off bercause I don;t have jellybeans at m house and its late. Cool I need to have more fun from mroe often is what I'm deciding totallty. So I'll ( Read more... )

I wish it was lastnight, everynight... <3

It's been a while since I updated on here. I should make a point to do it more since I actaully enjoy writing in my blogs as much as possible, with the only ral problem being that I haven't gotten a lot of time to myself this year. I If/when a free moment does pop up, I usually use it to sleep or read. Sometimes I also worry about how incredablly ( Read more... )

Happy New Year... I guess. I have a headache, I've been sleeping all day, I have to be up for work in 3 hours (for the next 2 days), I havn't hung out with my friends, gone out anywhere to celebrate, I don't get to kick in the new year with anyone special, I am alone, I am depressed, and I am complaining. I know a "new year" is just a concept, but ( Read more... )

I'm back. Some good things about today: I got to see some of my family and they are awesome!! I love spending time with them whenever I get a day to myself, which is hardly ever anymore. I got a few gifts including the new Biohazzard CD, some games for my XBox 360 when I finally get it, headphones, and a lot of gift certificates. I liked all of ( Read more... )

I really need to start writing in my live journal again...

starting tomorrow.

Considering I have to be up for work in like 4 hours!! It'll be good though I promise, as long as I don't get too carried away. :)

First off I want to retract some of the things in my last entry... just if not for anything else to clear my concious. I feel liek a horible person even over something I hve no control over ( Read more... )

We used to listen to the radio ( Read more... )

I have so much going on deep inside. How can I say it all without making it too obvious? How can I really prove that I'm not lying, trying to get attention, or why I can't let go of something? Usually given the right amount of time and patience I can do just that. Why not now? It's because more than half of me doesn't wan't to let go of good ( Read more... )