mmmnnnn, I've been looking into companies that I might be interested in working for when I graduate, is part of my technical writting class, and well I think I want to work for either NI, TI, NASA, or my last resort would be utilities companies but that would suck ass and I would rather stay in school longer and be a prof, hahaha ( Read more... )

back to classes, i can't say that I'm excited about it though, hahaha. Digital signal processing sounds like will be an interesting class, while technical writting will be a pain in the ass, I've been avoiding it for like 2 years and I've dropped it like 2 times, but now I have to take it and get it over with. Suck ass required class. Anyways, that ( Read more... )

mmmmnnn, I'm 21 and still I feel like a kid. The world of adults still looks so disgusting, I just can't picture myself as part of it. right now, the world I've been living on all this time is starting to crumble. I see no point in me being a part of anything, this is just a waste of time, I'm just role playing here. I'm not getting anything, I'm ( Read more... )

Since I was around 9 years old I've been hearing this inner voice echoing in my head and I can't make it shut up. This voice is a woman's. It insults me and laughs at me whenever I feel like doing something but I can't, or whenever I regret something. It used to be very strong when it first started, it wouldn't let me sleep. Then it started to ( Read more... )

I've been thinking a lot again, about my current state of being. It appears that currently I'm in the path of failure, my mistake being that I have experienced the shame of losing to myself so I'm playing it really safe now, trapping me in this state with no chance of improvement. If I want to gain something I have to take a risk, that's how it is ( Read more... )

Today really felt like a nice spring day maybe even with a little taste of summer in it. The breeze felt so nice, but somehow I couldn't stand been close to people. Today I just want to be left alone, I want to vanish and leave no trace of me behind. I guess that sounds emo to some people, but that just means that they fail to see the real me. ( Read more... )

what the title of this post states, is the law. Now let me try to explain it ( Read more... )

man, I feel like I'm swimming in a pile of crap. everything seems so worthless. To my eyes, people waste their lives, and even degrade when passing through them. I know i have degraded, I wanted to check what was it that I was going to leave behind, or maybe i'm just justifying my fault, either case it doesn't change my position and I need to bring ( Read more... )

1. O Light of lights, in whom I have had faith from the beginning, hearken now then, O light, unto my repentance. Save me, O Light, for evil thoughts have entered into me ( Read more... )

i'm really shy, I need to get over it. All it takes is the crossing of our sights and I'm already shaking, hahahaha. stupid shyness, hope i don't give the wrong impression. I can't possibly stop feeling shy without annihilating that I, so for the time being i'll just have to make some other I's stronger than the shy I. Another huge part of my ( Read more... )