Sometimes I have the most amazing dreams. Like last night, it was the dream of my perfect life. I was at the same point in time where i'm at; however, things were a little twisted. I was enrolled for grad school instead of trying to find a job. I had just started to go out with Shiau, which was wonderful. But then I woke up confused, asking where ( Read more... )

Yes, that is very true. I can't seem to find a job and every girl i've ever been interested in has no interest in me. What is wrong with me? I don't know honestly. But every plan I ever made is falling apart right on my face, all my wishes are impossible to get. Sometimes I feel like I'm just waiting to die out, I'm not part of the mainstream ( Read more... )

sooo my fucking deadly sin is caring too much about kelly? is it so bad that is fucking up both of our lives? what the hell am i supposed to do? just stand and pretend that i don't care when i'm being torn to pieces when you tell me how you're suffering so much? If i had known how you really felt i would have told you otherwise. believe me that i ( Read more... )

I need to change...*faces the sky*...it's so cloudly, but this is the reality i must face. The dream is over. Time to find my own light.

I've been analyzing my thoughts a lot lately and I've realized that I don't really know many things that I take for granted. For example, my own emotions. why do I feel happy or sad about certain things? what really defines happiness? Some might argue that it is doing what you want to do, realizing your dreams and desires. Hence feeling closer to ( Read more... )

I've gotten a haircut. there's various reasons but the most relevant is that I felt the need for a change. Besides, it didn't really suit me. The whole reasons behind getting my hair get that long in the first place were, 1) rebellion, to my parents that were always trying to control my image, 2) I wanted to see how it would look, 3) I liked to ( Read more... )

mmnnn, my sister wants to get guitar hero *sigh* I keep telling her that it sucks! ddr is way more fun than guitar fucktard, ohh well, her choice ( Read more... )

Damn it! I'm feeling really crushed. Why are these thoughts tormenting me? Why do they distress me so much? argh!!!

mmmnnn, I can't seem to be able to sleep...i'm worried.

You Would Be a Pet Cat
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