Everything seems so different right now. Something changed, my world has changed, my role has changed. Everything is the same, nothing is out of place yet it all feels so different. Maybe is just that my perception is messed up because I'm sick but maybe something did change. Is weird, I just remembered something from when I was about 7 years old. ( Read more... )

Today it has been one of those days where the future just hits me. What do I want to do? Actually what can I do that would be the best for me? As Electrical Engineer I'll have quite some good demand I think, the question is in what field to specialize? If I specialize in power, I could get a job in almost any town in utilities, but that would be ( Read more... )

Why the fuck do some people don't realize that most of the time, the way they think and interpret some things is not true? Why the fuck push your fucking beliefs and feelings to others? You want to express yourself, fine, do it. But if there is no response then don't fucking insist because you get to be irritating and I'll fucking cock slap you, I ( Read more... )

eek! I don't know what to do, I need some advice, I need to listen to a different opinion...

for the last week I've been having the same dream, I'm talking to Kelly and I feel really happy. I never remember what we talk about though. Is kind of weird, I wake up and I look for her but then i realize that i'm actually on my bed and that i had just woken up hahaha. It is kind of funny.

man, i've been up all night playing wow again, pvping is so much fun!!! haha. I see all this horde with crazy gear and whoa i look to take them on one on one. I think they're not used to fight balance druids like me hehehe, or they just suck hahaha. anyways, enough about wow. Moving on to life matters, everything is very static. However, some ( Read more... )

man, is this late and i'm not sleepy at all and is not because i'm playing wow, i didn't feel like playing anymore, hence this entry haha. I have something stuck in my head, niggerfaggit! HAHAHA, nahh just kidding. I just can't sleep hahaha. I just feel like jumping and dancing hahaha.

I feel really weird again. Is hard to explain this time. I feel like if I try to look at myself in the mirror, I won't see myself fully reflected, that I'll appear trasparent like a ghostly figure. If something is there but everybody ignores it, is it really there? How can I see the unseen? How can I phase shift into their reality? maybe it is that ( Read more... )

man, I didn't sleep last night because I didn't want to miss my morning class and now that I'm back from it I'm really tired haha. But I can't sleep yet, have class at 2 that I also shouldn't miss. Ohh and is Monday, meaning anime night show haha. Man, it will be a long day hahaha. Is weird though, eventhough I'm really sleepy, I'm actually more ( Read more... )

damn, being depressed sucks. But why do I feel sad? I can't possibly change this feeling, I can cover it up with other emotions but when everything else is gone, this is all that is left. But this is only because of myself, this is the degrading state I am, trapped in my own perception and fighting against my own emotions. This is the me when ( Read more... )