transparency
I feel really weird again. Is hard to explain this time. I feel like if I try to look at myself in the mirror, I won't see myself fully reflected, that I'll appear trasparent like a ghostly figure. If something is there but everybody ignores it, is it really there? How can I see the unseen? How can I phase shift into their reality? maybe it is that existence is really a dual thing and is not a matter of shifting matter but only shifting perception. Probably nobody would understand what I mean with that. I am a weird one, I know. I've been told that I think too much, that I should just stop it and go on with life. But I ask, what's the point in living without a purpose? I have these questions, they are part of my being, they need to be answered. That people say there is no answer won't do it for me, probably they just haven't found them. I'm not saying that they exist, I'm just following my instinct that tells me to keep looking. That is all there is to it. But that doesn't mean that I'll destroy myself in the proscess, I know there should be a balance. But right now I'm completely out of balance, totally shifted to the physical and that's something that should be fixed. There's really no big deal, other than I have to leave like an hour a day to meditate and such and nothing else would change. Is that bad? lol.
Anyways, enough about me. My brother is now engaged, booya! My sister just told me about it, he didn't tell me anything haha. Maybe I scared him that time I said that I had to aprove her to be his wife hahaha. I was just kidding, I told my sister that about her boyfriend too. Is a family thing, my dad was a really jelous sibling and I was just kind of mocking him hahaha. So yea, I hope everything goes well with my bro and my future sister in law. They'll probably settle in san antonio, since my brother just got a good job there. I wonder if I'll ever get married too...so far things are looking really bad hahaha.
Anyways, enough about me. My brother is now engaged, booya! My sister just told me about it, he didn't tell me anything haha. Maybe I scared him that time I said that I had to aprove her to be his wife hahaha. I was just kidding, I told my sister that about her boyfriend too. Is a family thing, my dad was a really jelous sibling and I was just kind of mocking him hahaha. So yea, I hope everything goes well with my bro and my future sister in law. They'll probably settle in san antonio, since my brother just got a good job there. I wonder if I'll ever get married too...so far things are looking really bad hahaha.