thoughts
I've been thinking a lot again, about my current state of being. It appears that currently I'm in the path of failure, my mistake being that I have experienced the shame of losing to myself so I'm playing it really safe now, trapping me in this state with no chance of improvement. If I want to gain something I have to take a risk, that's how it is. with this current state of mind i'm bound to fail myself, I have to change it. My shy side, my isolation, those things that are shielding me from the outside, they have to dissapear. I have to expose myself, and that would explain the dream I had last night. In it I was with this girl that I like, we were riding this helicopter-bicycle, basically you had to pedal to fly, haha. it was fun. She was showing me how to fly around in that thing but what really bothered me the whole time is that I was in my underwear so I kept asking her to stop by my place to get some pants on, hahaha. I guess that dream makes sense now. Now I should bring down my barriers. Too bad I might not get a chance to get close to her in a while, my fault for missing my chance. Ohh well, that'll give me time to prepare myself.
On a random thought, what is the meaning of kissing? people do it all the time but does anybody know how that started or why do we really do it? "at the beginning was the verb, the verb was with god, and the verb was god", or something like that. mmnnnnn, i might be on to something here.
On a random thought, what is the meaning of kissing? people do it all the time but does anybody know how that started or why do we really do it? "at the beginning was the verb, the verb was with god, and the verb was god", or something like that. mmnnnnn, i might be on to something here.