the subject says it all. life is fucking insane right now. i have been working for an online adult marketing company (aka i build porn sites and do marketing for porn companies) for about a month now. i get paid a lot of money. i drive an hour away for work. i look at porn all day. i am moving to the valley with terry, colin and catie. we are ( Read more... )

i give up. the end

i had a really good weekend. made me realize how much of an importance my friends and my relationships with them are. i feel like i was letting myself become really blind of that and not allowing myself to have enough patience and really be there for some friends. i also feel that i let myself deal with some situations in a really negative manner ( Read more... )

saw a midnight screening of 30 days of night since i missed the special screening the other day. fucking awesome. way stoked on it. i think they did a really good job with the story, there were a few things i would have liked to have seen done a bit differently, mainly just more of the story on the vampires and maybe a few other things they left ( Read more... )

somedays are easier than others. one day everything i have planned or try to plan can turn to shit but i keep smiling and laughing. another day the slightest thing could be the hardest thing in the world to deal with and bring me down. that's life. they say the right side of our brain is our negative side and yet it's where our creativity comes, i ( Read more... )

sometimes life scares the shit out of me i really wish i could be far away in the woods with only access to records of my choice, delicious food, good reading material and movies that i would actually enjoy. why can't things in life be more organic? i like when things are simple. i like when i don't have to try to make sense of things, instead ( Read more... )

i ended up turning down the glass and ashes tour. i had only jammed with them once which went really well especially after only getting the new album two days prior and i had another practice in the works but i decided i didn't really want to put the time, money and energy into doing a full us tour for a band that isn't my own. i love the dudes and ( Read more... )

i got the new cd yesterday to start learning the songs to jam with glass and ashes and i get a call tonight from mike asking if i can jam tomorrow because mike (drummer) can't do practice and knows it's short notice but i said sure, even though i only got a few down it will still be rad to jam and get comfortable playing with the guys and get a ( Read more... )

it's been a good week. a lot of good times and realizations. pretty much in a nut shell i have realized i have a lot of rad things in life from friends to music to my bed and the rain. i have also realized that at this point in my life random hook ups aren't really in my interest anymore. maybe i am growing up or maybe i am just finally realizing ( Read more... )

life is always full of unexpected twists and turns. i've known this. things are really looking up. i am still in a very weird and confused spot in my life but that's life. finding those people and things in your life that bring you the most joy and good times are what you need to embrace because that's life right there. non of the other bullshit ( Read more... )