addicted to writing down my thoughts
sometimes life scares the shit out of me i really wish i could be far away in the woods with only access to records of my choice, delicious food, good reading material and movies that i would actually enjoy. why can't things in life be more organic? i like when things are simple. i like when i don't have to try to make sense of things, instead things are just what they are without questioning. i like when things just happen on their own and it's good and exciting and you just continue to let it happen and it continues to work out and makes you enjoy everything in your life that much more. i am in a really good spot in life and i am always working on making it even better and more enjoyable. if i can't find happiness in what i do with my life, then what would the point of living be?
i am glad i have learned so much at such a young age and have found what takes most years to find and figure out. i think it's funny how those my age or close in age with me don't see it much or even at all but the older friends of mine that i dive into conversation with totally see it and understand it and are the ones telling me that i have found/figured out so much in life that most don't until they are way older or never at all. maybe that alone is saying something. hmm i guess i really just know what i want and what i like and i know the things in my life that i dislike and are keeping me from fully getting to those goals in my life.
i can honestly say i am really proud of myself. i am 19 years young and i already been working full time in web design for over a year now, paying every bill i have on my own including rent + utilities (even though i still live at home with my mum, two sisters and nephew) for the last two years. i am proud that i can manage to support myself and continue to push myself to do what i put my heart to. i feel like i can confidently accomplish anything in my life i want to do. i am constantly proving to myself that i can do things that i never thought would be possible. i guess i am not as lazy as i let myself believe sometimes. oh well, enough talk about how much i think have my shit together and how it makes me happy, instead i am gonna go cuddle up in bed. sleepy time. xo david
i am glad i have learned so much at such a young age and have found what takes most years to find and figure out. i think it's funny how those my age or close in age with me don't see it much or even at all but the older friends of mine that i dive into conversation with totally see it and understand it and are the ones telling me that i have found/figured out so much in life that most don't until they are way older or never at all. maybe that alone is saying something. hmm i guess i really just know what i want and what i like and i know the things in my life that i dislike and are keeping me from fully getting to those goals in my life.
i can honestly say i am really proud of myself. i am 19 years young and i already been working full time in web design for over a year now, paying every bill i have on my own including rent + utilities (even though i still live at home with my mum, two sisters and nephew) for the last two years. i am proud that i can manage to support myself and continue to push myself to do what i put my heart to. i feel like i can confidently accomplish anything in my life i want to do. i am constantly proving to myself that i can do things that i never thought would be possible. i guess i am not as lazy as i let myself believe sometimes. oh well, enough talk about how much i think have my shit together and how it makes me happy, instead i am gonna go cuddle up in bed. sleepy time. xo david