when we is thrown away
somedays are easier than others. one day everything i have planned or try to plan can turn to shit but i keep smiling and laughing. another day the slightest thing could be the hardest thing in the world to deal with and bring me down. that's life. they say the right side of our brain is our negative side and yet it's where our creativity comes, i find that a bit interesting. comics are my new found love. i held out for so long not wanting to get caught up in collecting something else but i can't fight it any longer, i love them. most of my free time recently has been sitting in my room reading comics and listening to music, relaxing. i am really confused about everything and i can't even really explain what everything is and what one thing i am especially confused about, everything is just a giant blurry haze. i know something is on the rise, i know that there is something coming up, i can feel it. i can sense something in the future, it's building up and i think it's about to see it's time. i have no idea what it is but i've felt it building up the last month or two. there is so much to life that i can't really let myself get too down because i know there is something else ready to bring excitement and happiness to my life. i enjoy who i am and i enjoy what i do, i like my life. i love my outlook on life and i like that i've become a person my friends can come to with their problems and or for help. in life i just want to understand everyone else. i want to know why people are the way they are, why they think the things they do and why they act the way they do. we are all stories waiting to be read and heard. i love diving into conversation and building understand of those around me and building relationships and taking care of people. i think that's my purpose in life. helping others in any way i can while trying to find my own piece of mind and make sense of this life. i sure have found specific interests that make this journey very enjoyable. i am gonna go get some sleep but i feel at peace and i have hope. xo david